God at work through my life

Loneliness

2011-07-08T21:48:00.003+08:00

I've not had any true inspiration to write for a loooooooooong time and I praise the Lord that it has come back! God taught me 1 thing each day since 2 days ago, and today, he taught me another thing. When God teaches me something, I have inspiration to write.

So last week, during YF, we were brought to the church library and I picked up some books. The one that I am currently reading is written non other than my favourite author Elisabeth Elliot titled Loneliness.

Ha! If it wasn't for the author, I would never pick up a book with that title. It's all a pride issue...Who wants to be tagged as 'lonely'? I definitely don't need a book to help me with loneliness coz I don't have a problem with loneliness. But guess what? God prooved me wrong (yet again!)

Elisabeth Elliot, though had lost her 1st husband to the tribes in Ecuador Jungle during a mission trip, and lost her 2nd husband to cancer, talks about how God transformed her lonelinest time to become a gift back to God and how during these times, her heart desire to learn from Him deepen in the midst of suffering.

I love what she wrote from Chapter 1

"I do not feel at all like crying-except for joy at the thought of Christ's being the Death of Death. I did not cry at the memorial service for my first husband. It seemed very strange to onlookers, I'm sure- "She must be made of concrete!" - but I'm not the only one who has experienced this. It often happens that those whose loss is the greatest receive the GREATEST share of GRACE, MERCY and PEACE (Amen!). This does not mean that they never cry, of course. But they do not collapse. Those who only watch and pray and try to put themselves in the place of the bereaved find it almost endurable. Sometimes they weep uncontrollably, for their imaginations never include the grace.

So it happensefor me at the funeral. The peace given simply passes understanding, and I'm borne up by those intense prayers, as if on strong wings, far above grief.

But suddenly, one day as I am pulling something from the shelf in the supermarket, the tide sweeps in and I find myself sobbing. Happily no one seems to notice. If someone should, wold my explanation ("My husband died three months ago?) make sense to him - here in the supermarket?"

God taught me (Yan Shiang) that it's ok to admit that I am lonely sometimes, and I am weak or in need of someone to be beside me. It's during our loneliest times that we meet with God. Sometimes, God allows loneliness to draw us near to Him. It is part of His bigger plans for us. In the midst of our loneliest time we cry out to Him. Psalms will definitely come alive to you during your loneliest times.

I began to be aware of this lonely time that I have, be it during when I was driving alone in the car, during a busy time at work or in my own room. When we suffer during our lonely times, He comes to us as the Love that would never let us go. The Love that calls us into being, woos us to Himself, makes us His bride, lays down His life for us, and daily crowns us with loving kindess and tender mercy will NOT, no matter how it may appear in our loneliness, abandon us. He says in His word, "I will never (never never never never never) leave you nor forsake you." Amen!

"Even the most intimate human companionship cannot satisfy the deepest places of the heart. Our hearts are lonely till they rest in Him who made us for Himself" (Elisabeth Elliot)

Just recovered

2010-11-06T10:03:00.002+08:00

It has been at least 3 months, I've not written anythoughts or feelings down. It's been really difficult to express openly and publicly how I've been coz some memories or flashback can be quite painful or scarry. But thank God, I have the Almighty God and savour king to turn to. Amen!

Past few months, I've met lots of new friends from my trip to taiwan and new friends in church, such as Jones from Ghana and also, gotten closer to Rui. Relationship with mom has been ups and down but all glory to God because everything in my life happens for my good, something for me to learn, and God has graciously see me through all circumstances. Besides that, also had a chance to meet Mrs Chan from Singapore, who is also a part-time missionary in India. She came over to Brunei to train us in our singing.

Recently, Ah Kim from Miri called and told us that while she was undergoing her rehabilitation from stroke in Kuching, some people brought her to church and she is interested in christianity. It's a big encouragement and mom and I began to talk about how to evangelise to others. Mom also began asking me some questions which I want to write down.

1) Why do you want to be a christian?
And I answered her "because Jesus loves me"
and she asked...
2) How do you know Jesus loves you?
And I ansered, because He gives me a new chance in my life

I guess, everyone will have their own specific answer but it's something to think about...:)

Melancholy

2010-07-04T11:22:00.002+08:00

Lately, I've not been very inspired lately to write anything. Things are different now, and things definitely has changed. I've been feeling melancholy...

A lot of times, I go out to church or meet people, and there is a smile on my face. But what they do not know is that there is also a heavy load in my heart. I feel like choking sometimes. I am trying very hard to try and dissolve that heavy load, but I think it's going to take some time, and also the healing touch of the ONE who put it there. PAIN.

On the bright side of things, I've been meeting up with my friends from secondary school to catch up and also tomorrow, will be meeting up my primary school mates. Wow, some I've not met for more than 10 years!

I'm trying to move on with my life by occuping myself with different dynamics of people, young and old, people with different family background, problems, issues, questions etc. I find that somehow, it may become a blessing one day as I increase my understanding of how different people work, talk, think and understanding.

My nephew is also a blessing to my life. We've been hanging out a lot, and I'm watching him grow up and it's very funny to see how he struggles to say what he wants to express due to lack of vocabulary. We play together at the park and play cars together. He's only 3 years old and I really love him. I can't wait for him to grow up so we can do more things together. Although he is a muslim, I pray that one day he'll understand the love of God.

Work has been slow for the past 2 months, as I have a new colleague, whom I am assigned to train her up. So, basically, I have to give her all my work so that she will know how to do them. I was involved in the lab for a while, but now i'm just working on the SOP for some stuffs. It's ok, I guess. I'm not entirely enjoying what I am doing, but lets just pray that this is just a transition phase for me to gain experience and one day, I'll land in a job that I truely find rewarding and enjoy.

I'm single again. I find that it's pretty lonely sometimes, but it also gives me a lot more flexibility (emotional wise) to mingle with other guys without feeling guilty and I am more emomtionally independent now.

Haha...Enough said! Have a great Sunday!

Yummmmy...home made dumplings (zhong zhi)

2010-05-28T11:11:00.009+08:00

Today, mom and I took the opportunity to make dumplings together, since it's friday and I'm not working. I am supposedly to study for my exams (Financial Regulations and GO Exam) but decided that I'd join mom for the fun. Below are some pictures which I took for you to have a look.

Steps to make dumplings:

Firstly, fry all the ingredients which include the meat, mushrooms, shrimps, chestnuts or whatever you like in multiple secret sauces, soya sauce being one of them :P

Then, boil the leaves (I think they are bamboo leaves) to remove the hairs and to soften them.

Get ready the strings to tie the dumplings, and hang them on a stable support.

Fry the glutinous rice with garlic, oil, five spice, soya sauce, black sauce, pepper, chicken stock...

When everything is ready, you can start wrapping the dumplings!

That's mom wrapping the dumplings. It takes much skills to hold it, twist and turn the leaves, wrap and tie them properly to that when you cook the dumplings in boiling water, the rice won't fall out of the leaves and are still intact.

After boiling it for 45 minutes, the dumplings are ready to be served and devoured! I wra

Anybody wants to place order, please let me know! :D

HOW DO I KNOW GOD'S WILL FOR MY LIFE?

2010-05-24T11:54:00.005+08:00

Recently, a long lost friend of mine introduced me to a few good christian speakers and writers such as Bill Hybels, John Ortberg and Joel Osteen. I was browsing through John Ortberg's blog today (http://johnortberg.com/ and his post of the topic above was really comforting, as I know I am not alone. Weather you are 12 or 25 or 30 or 50 years old, there may come a point in your life where you long for God to answer this question. But as John Ortberg rightly puts it, "God knew that I would grow if I had to make choices in ways I would never grow if I got a heavenly postcard."

The full post is as below...hope it speaks to you as much as it did to me.

I was at commencement at a Christian college this weekend, and it reminded me of the question millions of young people are asking this time of year.We never grow out of that question: Who is operating out of a wisdom surplus?

But the vast majority of people start at the wrong place.
When I finished college, I desperately wanted to know what I should do next. Find a job? Go to grad school? Where? In what field?

I prayed until I was exhausted (and God was probably a little tired of it too). I was ready to do whatever. Just send me a postcard. Put it in sky writing. But I would have gotten more clarity with a Magic 8 ball.
For a good reason.
Which I did not understand for many years.
And its this:God’s main purpose for you is not what you do. Its who you become.
If I always told my kids what do to–wear these clothes, take this job, marry this person–they might do what I say. Their circumstances might even turn out OK.
But they would not grow into excellent persons.
To grow into an excellent person, you have to make choices, exercise judgment, take responsibility, and learn.
There is no short-cut for this.
So, if I want my children to become excellent people–my will for their life will often be: “You choose.”

God knew that I would grow if I had to make choices in ways I would never grow if I got a heavenly postcard.

“God’s will” is not a way of escaping the anxiety and responsbility of making decisions.
I had a friend–a really bright guy and great New Testament scholar–who was convinced it was God’s will for him to marry the girl he wanted to marry because a certain song played at a certain moment on a certain radio station.It wasn’t God’s will. It was just a Barry Manilow marathon.Sometimes a Barry Manilow marathon is just a Barry Manilow marathon.

How do I know God’s will for my life?
–Live this day in an open, repentant spirit.–Understand that living in God’s will often means I must make decisions.
–Pray constantly, regularly asking for wisdom in small moments, without placing pressure on God to give any particular kind of response.
–”Let your life speak”: Parker Palmer wrote a wonderful book by this title from an old Quaker saying; if you look at the trajectory of your life with simplicity and openess certain patterns will emerge that will help you understand your shape and gifts and longings
–Have wise, godly people speak into your life with love and truth
–Be willing to make mistakes and learn from them quicker rather than slower
–Have a mind immersed with great thoughts from Scripture–Practice making decisions and learning from them all day long
–Live in freedom and joy. Trust God that He can guide you into His will without your obsessing over it.

Mom's Answering Machine

2010-05-10T07:58:00.004+08:00

Hello - This is your Mother!
*If you want my advice:
PRESS 1
*If you want to argue:
PRESS 2
*If you want your father to drive you somewhere
PRESS 3
*If you want to leave a message:
WAIT FOR THE TONE
*If you want to aggravate me or borrow money:
HANG UP!

Love in a Breakfast Box

2010-05-08T09:52:00.011+08:00

Today, I learnt a lesson of overflowing love, patience, tolerance and forgiveness.

Mom usually pack some fruits and biscuits for me to bring to work every morning. On top of that, she has to wake up earlier than me every morning to prepare breakfast. It's not that I force her to, but she does it with a willing heart. I guess there are many, many times, I never appreciated what she does for me and I just take them for granted. But to mom, I guess she's joyful that she can serve her children in this matter. I believe my mum is a great woman, who understands her calling from God to be a faithful and loving mother, doing all that she can to make the lives of her children comfortable.

Anyway, the reason I am writing this post is that I am deeply touched by, not only the food that mom prepared for me to bring to work this morning, but also in it's wonderful presentation. For your information, the piece of fruit is nicely pierced through a 'satay' stick. I can't believe she went all the way to do that for me.

Allow me to introduce what's in my breakfast box. You can see, there is a hard-boiled egg, a piece of peach and pear on stick. Two little round containers, one with raisins and the other almonds.

To divert a little bit, last night mom and I went to Giant. As I walked by the fruit stall, I saw a crowd of people buying fruits (you know, those ready sliced ones and they're on satay sticks which people sell for 1 dollar per stick). So I stood there and was thinking if I should get one. Then, thinking twice, I thought I'd pass and save the dollar. Mom, who was with me at that time, must have observed me closely.

I have to confess, many times, I am very choosy in what mom prepares for me, and I even get mad at her for forcing me to eat those "things" that prepare (usually, they're super healthy stuffs which, as usual, super healthy stuffs are not as appealing or tasty as unhealthy stuffs generally).

Just this morning, I didn't appreciate what she did for me. Mom made me a bowl of instant noodles, and brought it out for me to the table. I looked at it and say "I don't want that!" And she said "But it's good for you. I thought you should eat something hot in the morning." Then I replied "NO! I don't want that. I don't want it" and she said "But it's good for you, you should eat it". Then I said "Mom, I told you so many times, don't force me to eat or do stuffs that I don't like. I told you once already that I don't want, and you told me like 5 times that I should eat it. I don't want to eat it mom!". Then mom said "oh, sorry sorry..." and sadly brought the noodle back to the kitchen.

Now thinking back, what kind of attitude was that that I had. After all the unkind words that I've said to her, she still loves me. I should really apologise to mom and tell her that I love her.

I learnt through mom that action speaks louder than words. What mom did was just a glimpse of the love of Jesus Christ towards his beloved children.

Perseverance results in maturity

2010-04-24T10:45:00.011+08:00

I drove down to Miri to pick my mom up on Thursday after work, and we returned back last night. I was overjoyed to see my mom again, feels like I've not seen her for 2 years! Then we hugged =) and chatted until quite late, and got really tired. In Miri, I also went to perm my hair and dye it brownish. I can't wait to surprise people in church. My colleagues are already surprised today! Hehe!

Lately, I've been been either hearing or reading or conversing with people and a lot of bad/disappointing news. Well, I am not the person directly encountering them so I cannot say that I exactly know how each of them feels, but I felt a huge burden for them. Some people may ask, if God was a God of love, then experiencing all the illness and problems wouldn't make God such a loving person as He claims, would it? But I know I have to learn to not take them all on my own and be overly worried for them, but to leave it to the cross of Jesus.

In a reply to my SL's email, I wrote her a few verses which has helped me and I wanted to share with her, trusting that the word of the Lord will strengthen her and comfort her. I'd like to also share it with you all and may you too be encouraged by God's promises.

"Continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose. (Phil 2:12,13).

Consider it pure joy, my (brother/sister), whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. (James 1:2-4).

Remember also, the bible says "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." (James 1:12)Yeah, continue to be faithful in what called us to do, and don't wave or doubt. Because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. But when he (you) asks, he (you) must believe and not doubt. (James 1:6).

p/s: quoting so much from James because I'm studying this book again this week, but trying to dive deeper into it, giving it more thoughts and asking for more revelation into this book."

Someone also wrote something I so happen to read this morning, when encountering a worldly challenge in your life, he wrote:

"Without the storm, the stillness would lack meaning. You can't get closer to God than when you need him so much because there is no one else, nothing else. Despite the difficulties, there will be seldom more precious times with Him. You are not alone - Thy rod & Thy staff they comfort me."

How encouraging is that!

Pressing prayer items currently on my list are:

1) WL's dad condition
2) KG eye operation
3) RY's company of friends + exams
4) AT's job situation
5) SL friendship problem
6) Amaci's pain in leg
7) G's not going to church anymore
8) R's operation and visa

A song kept playing in my heart, which kept reminding of God's sacrificial yet unconditional love. Always remember the value of that old rugged cross.

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross,
the emblem of suffering and shame;
and I love that old cross where the dearest and best
for a world of lost sinners was slain.

(Refrain)
So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
and exchange it some day for a crown.

O that old rugged cross, so despised by the world,
has a wondrous attraction for me;
for the dear Lamb of God left his glory above
to bear it to dark Calvary.
(Refrain)

In that old rugged cross, stained with blood so divine,
a wondrous beauty I see,
for 'twas on that old cross Jesus suffered and died,
to pardon and sanctify me.
(Refrain)

To that old rugged cross I will ever be true,
its shame and reproach gladly bear;
then he'll call me some day to my home far away,
where his glory forever I'll share.
(Refrain)

Lastly, as reminded and shared by Bro Chris during bible study this week, from Collosians 3: 15-17. Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Amen.

Have a glorious day ahead, my dear friends!

Minor casualty!

2010-04-17T23:02:00.004+08:00

This morning, I scalded my left hand fingers with boiling hot water, while making a cup of coffee. The pain wasn't felt until a little later, when I felt extreme sharp unbearable pains, even after Siti helped me apply colgate on it. I went downstairs to the dressing room where the nurse put some Flammazine on, and then went to see the doctor, who was kind enough to tell me that I'm actually suppose to go to the clinic in Rimba and not in OSP because I live in Rimba, eventhough I work in OSP. Oh well...I got my MC, took some ibuprofen and thankfully, I could drive home safely eventhough my hands felt really painful and stiff.

In the afternoon, I slept for a while, then woke up, finding myself led to spend sometime with the Lord. I was praying specifically for a few people and then for myself. I asked God to show Himself and be more real to me as I need some encouragement right now in my life. God used Debs to encourage me through our msn chat tonight. She told me that the Proverbs 19:21 verse on my msn has been speaking specifically to things in her heart. And I told her that I have had that on for a while now coz a few weeks ago, I started a commitment to memorise a verse until it sticks permanently to my mind/heart and then move on to another verse. Besides that, I also just started reading the book of James today, and without knowing that, Debs also encourage me to have small group discussions about James 4 with my young lady friend whom I am currently looking after. This is definitely not a coincidence, but God has brought us into this conversation to encourage one another. Hmm...maybe I should start an informal bible discussion on James with my fellow sisters-in-christ.

Have a GrrRrRRReat and RrrrRRoaRRrring Sunday my friends!

Worship Practice Amusement!

2010-04-16T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hehe...I just got home from worship practice. Simon is worship leading, WS on the guitar, Geri piano, Wen Jin keyboard, Noel, Jane and I were back-up singing. WS and S together makes the whole atmosphere very amusing and there was at one point, I just can't hold it anymore, I burst out laughing and Geri started laughing. Then, we both couldn't stop laughing. Overall, I enjoyed doing the back-up singing.

Today, I've been feeding myself with the cereals which I bought last night. Yeap, it's plain old cornflakes! I actually had that for breakfast and lunch. Dinner I cooked long beans, tofu, tomato and egg and had them with the black-pepper chicken I bought from Giant yesterday. Just now, I had another bowl of cereals for supper. Eating cornflakes reminds me of how this guy in school, my maths quiz captain (nickname : Weed) who used to tease me and call me 'cornflakes girl' because I brought cornflakes to school for lunch (put it in a container) and the cold milk in a thermoflask :P Heh....those were the good old days.

This afternoon, I went for my facial appointment, then went to service my mom's car at the usual workshop. In between that, I had a very bad stomach ache (probably due to all the cereals), that I had to make an emergency stop at one of the petrol stations on my way to settle the pain. Today, I also went to George's place for a brief visit to cute little one, Evanna. She's the cutest little thing. Had a brief chat with Annie then off I went to church for practice.

Mom's not back yet. She's gone down to Bintulu with my aunty yesterday. She sounded very happy. Missing mom a lot.

It's going to be a loooong Monday...

2010-04-12T12:02:00.003+08:00

Yeah, it's Monday again. Back to work and stuffs...It's going to be a long day. Deep inside, I wish I can be more thankful and appreciative of the new day though! Also, deep inside, I wish I can stop feeling sorry for myself because I didn't get my initial lucky draw prize from yesterday...Oh well, I should really stop thinking about that. It's just a vacuum cleaner and steam iron!!

Anyway, a few things happened over the weekend. Been busy doing 'other' things that I didn't have much time to clean up the house, leaving it in quite a messy state.

- Birth of baby Evana Susan George on 9th April 2010 at 8.20pm (RIPAS)! Congratulations to George and Annie!!
- Marriage of Tian Poh + En Tsin on 10th April 2010 (Hua Ho Manggis Mall)
- Pharmacy Annual Masquerade Ball/Gathering on 11th April 2010 (Asma Hotel)

On Sunday, I also did back up singing in church for pastor who led worship. I felt the worship session these few weeks was quite fired up...or maybe I was quite fired up. I also really enjoyed doing backup singing eventhough I was really tired after the pharmacy ball. We had Bro Teo from OM KK to share with us about mission again, promoting the upcoming evangelism training in KK by Tony Anthony and also, the Out of Comfort Zone (OCZ) in July, Port Dickson.

Then, there's also a mini mission trip to Mulu, Sarawak in May with John and the gang. I'm quite keen on that. Was told that we'll be visiting the church in the interiors as our church recently started supporting them financially. So, am going to apply for my 4 days leave today.

After church, we hang around for kopitiam and spoke to a few people and met a new friend from Melbourne. His name is Davin Tjan, friend of En Tsin and Tien Poh. We invited him to join us for dinner at Le Taj where we interrogated him with lots of questions. Too bad, he'll be leaving Brunei on Wednesday.

I can't wait for the day to end soon and go back home and clean up the messy house, relax and pray.

God bless.

Home alone goodness!

2010-04-08T08:30:00.004+08:00

I've been home alone for 4 days now. It's not that bad actually, not that scarry or lonely at all coz I am lucky to have people saying good night to me these couple of days and it's nice that people are thinking of me. Cross my fingers, I hope I get another good night message again tonight ;-)

So, on Monday, I went to the gym with Siti after work and we joined the classes and had a great workout. After that, I went back home and made dinner. I made myself a salad and black pepper chicken, then continued watching Glee until quite late.

Tuesday, work as usual. Then, went to play badminton with the usual people. Andy didn't turn up coz he had to go down to Sibu. After badminton, Chee Git, Cassandra + hubby + son Matthew, Lim + son went out for supper. I had siew mai and 100 plus. Reached home at about 11pm.

Yesterday, I had piano lessons during lunch time. My teacher made me brush up on a few songs and taught me how to play using different styles. After work, I went back there to practice again so that I wont forget. In the evening, I went to Larry's house for the Mission talk by Bro Teo (OM KK). His talk was short, mainly showing pictures and promoting the next mission conference in port dickson in July. Then, we had many many sessions of praying for pastors whom our church is supporting. Really tired by the end of the night. Got home about 11pm again, then called mom and she's apparently in Kuching with my uncles and aunties. How nice!

So, Praise the Lord for everything! For watching over me, protecting me and sustaining me everyday!

Home Alone again...

2010-04-05T15:31:00.004+08:00

I'm home alone again until maybe end of this week or next week. Mom has gone down to Miri again to do some stuffs and visit my uncle in Bintulu who just had a bad fall recently. Last saturday, we drove down to Miri after work and arrived quite late, around 9pm. Then, I brought my cousins - Wan Lin, Yen Lin, King Ling (Ah Boy), Yong Lin (Ah Bi) and Daniel to play bowling while our mothers hang out at home and chatted. After that, I treated the boys to KFC to celebrate Wan Lin's super good results of 8 A's in his form 5 exams.

Then, on Sunday morning, Moi Yi, Mom, Yen Lin and I went to Popo's cemetery. After that, we dropped by my uncle's coffee shop Perwira Cafe to collect my pau (oh, the pau there is so yummy, I had to bring some back to Brunei), and Ah Kien Q joined us for breakfast. I was so hungry by then (about 11am), the menu looked so good, I couldn't decide what I want to eat - wa tan hor, fried noodles, cau cai mee fern or kolomee...In the end, I settled for wa tan hor and chinese tea.

After our brunch, we went back to Moi Yi's place to clean up, rested for a while then I left miri on my own at 12.30pm and drove back to Brunei. The journey seemed short as I was enjoying the songs from Glee, played through the CD player in the car + also singing along to some christian songs. I arrived home at about 2pm! Took a shower, rested and then went to church.

Easter service at church was a good one. Noel lead the worship and he did a good job in song slection. All the musicians and back-up singers did a good job too. The congregation seemed very enthusiastic/passionate/alive and we sang. Greise came all the way from KB to join the service too, and we sat together. El-shama (our church choir group) send medleys of many wonderful songs too, and I sang along with them a few songs. Sermon by PTL was good too on finding the treasure at the RIGHT places, which he used Titanic as an illustration and linked it to Jesus burial, empty tomb and resurrection and the significance of an empty easter egg :). After church, we went out to have a really nice dinner at Tafu.

Going Bananas!

2010-03-31T20:41:00.007+08:00

Psalm 28:7The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.

The above verse is so true! As you trust in the Lord, no matter how bad the day seemed, somehow, just hang on to His hand no matter what happens, and He will deliver you and me! And at the end of it all, many times, I will give thanks to him in a song.

I had quite a stressful day at work today and my colleagues must have realised that I didn't smile as much as I usually do. There's also something about the lighting (maybe) in our office which makes the environment quite gloomy, and my workload is just about there to tick me off. Besides that, I'm also currently planning a trip to Taiwan with my mom in October and the online fares kept changing, and all those additional/hidden charges...phew. Siti, who is sitting next to me, seems stressed out with her APG stuff as well. Just now, at about 3 o'clock, our whole office was just packed with people and quite chaotic. In our room, there were the ladies from upstairs who were sorting out the gifts for APG, and I was there, sorting out somework and Siti was busy cutting stuffs. Outside in the living room, there was the dance practice, which I later joined, and at the meeting table, we had another group of people sorting out the Pharmacy Annual Report stuffs. Chong isn't in the office whole day today, so too bad, didn't get to see his funny monkey moves.

I was suppose to sort out my overdue road tax and car insurance after work, but the traffic was so bad on the road, I decided to go home instead. When I arrived home, I was so tired and hungry. Mom wasn't at home and she didn't cook anything today and I only had half a packet of instant noodles for lunch. I was so tired, mentally and physically, I took a quick shower and went to rest/sleep. After I woke up, mom was home and I told her I was hungry. Initially, I told her that we might as well just go out to eat, coz in my mind, I'm thinking of eating the fried chicken from the nasi penyet. But I was still very tired and didn't want to drive out. Mom ask me to rest somemore and she made me mee sua (rice noodle) soup with pork bits inside. She also ask me to put in a spoonfull of wine in it which makes it taste even nicer.

After that, I thought of chilling out online as I didn't have time to chill out during the day time. So, I was on msn and caught up with Rudi in Nottingham who just underwent a hip replacement surgery and thankfully, he's recovering well, although still on cruches and he's now staying with Jason. Then, I also caught up with Jihong, a sister in China, who came to know the Lord while she was studying in UK. She's now in Kunming and is still searching for a suitable job in China after leaving UK earlier this year. And then, chatted with a few other people...

Thank God that peace has returned to me this evening after, what seem like a long time of inner turmoil. Some verses has been flasing in my mind, on and off, these 3 days and I better write them down.

1) Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Phillipians 3:13,14

2) Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength. Nehemiah 8:10

Have a great day ahead, my friends!

Updated 31March2010

2010-03-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hmm...I've been wondering if people are still reading my blog and who you people are. Somehow, I think I need to know if who is reading to kind of tailor what I write here. Anyway, I'm going to hope and assume that my long lost buddies like Pam, HF, Lamie, Dan, CE etc etc are still reading and hoping that they are not too busy with their lives to have a quick update on how I'm doing. Heh...

I just got back home from a 2 hour badminton session with the usual people - Andy, Lim, Cassandra, Grace, Irene, The Balangs, Steven etc etc + the UBDians and the boys - Brian, Joel...etc etc. I've not played badminton since before chinese new year and it's great to be back after a long time.

Today at work, I was in the lab in the morning, overseeing the technicians do some testing on Vitamin C tablets - dissolution tests and assaying, titration etc etc. Then, we had a super long meeting about the sampling procedure etc..Half way through, Chong had to pick up a call...which we waited for and then I grew hungry and made myself a milo. It's quite busy now at our section and the section upstairs coz we're the comm for the Annual Pharmacy Gathering in less than 2 wks time. Amren is teaching us how to do this dance move, improvised from Michael Jackson's Thriller. I must say, it's fun to be dancing with my bosses and colleagues and we have great laughs each time we have our practice. Most of the moves are quite weird, where it started off with marching steps, then suddenly spreading wings and then moving waist, clapping above head, squat a little, shake your shoulders, do the monkey moves, do a 3 step turn, look back, walk a few steps and turn again. On the actual day, we'll all be wearing a mask. Hehe...Anyway, so this afternoon, I was sorting out some product complain replies, did some other stuffs and then, went to the ministry to have another meeting with the APG registration comm, and I have to say, eventho Noraini does have her grumpy side, she's really a great help to me, to come and discuss with me a few things before hand, and helped me print out the meeting agenda...etc etc. I must admit, a week ago, I met her in the lift and she looked and me grumpily and made some not-so-nice comments, and my view on her wasn't that good...but actually, she's got her good sides as well.

I've gone back to piano two weeks ago. A new song that my teacher is teaching me is Eternal Father. Learning it now..slowly getting used to switching the chords and coordinating my poor fingers. So far, I've learnt to play these songs below.
1)I'm trading my sorrows - easy one!
2) Give thanks
3) I worship you almighty God
4) Salvation belongs to our God
5) Shout to the Lord
6) I offer my life
7) Spirit song

Ok, so that's most of the things I'd like to update on. It's late now, I think I should better go to sleep. Ta!~ God bless.

Offering by Paul Baloche

2010-03-24T15:24:00.004+08:00

The sun cannot compare

To the glory of Your love

There is no shadow in Your presence

No mortal man would dare

To stand before Your throne

Before the Holy One of heaven

It's only by your blood

And its only by your mercy

Lord, I come

(Chorus)

I bring an offering Of worship to my King

No one on earth deserves The praises that I sing

Jesus may you receive The honor that You're due

O Lord, I bring an offering to you I bring an offering to you

Link 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YxuyRyi8ulw

Link 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVA-o80qkAo

A beautiful song. A few weeks ago, Jhune led sunday worship and I was doing back-up singing. It was my first time to hear this song during practice. Since then, this song has not only been stuck on my mind, but it has touched my heart deeply especially during difficult times, challenging times, times of doubt or times of discouragement to remember that God is there, through the toughest time. Eventhough I do not deserve any of His love, attention or forgiveness, He gave it freely. I wish I can go to the feet of the cross each time, just bringing Him an offering of worship and thanksgiving instead of always going to Him with my wish list or burdens. Our Lord deserves all our praises! Amen!

On Eagle's Wings

2010-03-17T11:59:00.002+08:00

Isaiah 40:30,31

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Singapre Solid Rock Reunion - 15th - 18th February 2010

2010-03-10T13:58:00.009+08:00

Sinli came to Singapore as well to join us. Both Pam and Sinli has become more gorgeous now. Pam jokes but still quite lame. Sinli is still working in Muar, busy with church ministry and building a church. We had a tiring but great time out at Sentosa! Picture below shows the Universal Studio at Sentosa Island.

Picture taken at one of the beaches at Sentosa.
Wei Leong looking very cool and handsome, posing outside the casino at Sentosa.
Went to have dinner at China Town with Boon Seong and Kwan Wei, and then tried the tang-yuen from BS's family shop. KW still the same, looking smart and working now with a law firm. BS as well, still looking good and cheery!
Two good buddies, at Clark Quay. Andrew and Wei Leong
So, this picture was taken at the Changi Beach, very near to where Pam is currently working.

Act of Love

2010-03-09T09:38:00.002+08:00

We have all been told,
God created the heavens and the earth.
Unfathomable, but nevertheless - true.
He did this not just by His perfect wisdom,
but most importantly, by His love.
It was not something that He had to do,
but rather something that He chose to do.
Just as a man expresses his love for a woman,
God expressed His love for his creation.
He spoke light and darkness into existence
and segregated the sky and the waters.
The delicate flowers are like love notes,
and the moon - a box of chocolates.
He taught the stars how to shine,
and carefully numbered each.
He created the birds, to keep the trees company,
the sun to penetrate the mountains,
and the fish to fill up the sea.
But most importantly, he created us humans,
to commune with our Maker.
He did all of this to express His love for us.
And once he had finished this intricate design -
he smiled and rested.
That is why everyday when I examine the earth,
which He securely holds in the palm of his hand,
I close my eyes and think of Him.
Written by: Debbie Enyidah

I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me. Philippians 4:13

2010-03-09T09:28:00.005+08:00

This morning, I came across a worthy article on the verse above and thought I'd share it with all of you. It's written by Dawn Fields (http://www.dawnfields.com/)

It is so hard to change old habits.

Year after year, you find yourself stuck in a job which you pretty much hate.

You are barely making enough money to make ends meet.

You often feel quite disappointed in yourself. To put it bluntly, you simply are not happy with what you do to make a living.

You stand by and watch your self-worth diminish and you feel you can't do nothing about it.

You try to rationalize why you stay on this go-nowhere job. You say, "I have to stay because the economy is so bad, I'm afraid to leave. It might take too long to find something else."

So you continue to stay at a job that is simply not the right job you.

Have you ever wondered why, no matter how hard you try to make the most of this job, it simply cannot and will not be something you love to do?

It's because you are working on a job or in a career that is NOT the job/career God has called you to do.

To be honest, we often feel stuck in these go-nowhere jobs. We convince ourselves that we need the benefits; it's not the right time to make any changes; maybe next year after..., then you'll start thinking about it, or perhaps after you...

If you continue to think this way, you will always be STUCK. You are stuck because you choose not to listen to God.

Instead of listening to God, you listen to yourself or to your friends and family who tell you to stay because, "Girlfriend, my sister was laid off and it took her 8 months to find a job."
And you get scared.

You take a chance and tell your best friend or family member about the dreams you have and the things you want to do. But they laugh and say, "Girl, stop dreamin'."

It seems that the bigger you dream, the more they laugh at you and say your dreams are silly or simply ridiculous.

And you believe them.

Now, tell answer me this. Why do you believe them and not believe God who tells you that you can do all things through Christ?

Why is it that we so often choose to believe our negative friends and family over God?

Many times, the people who are the closest to us, with good intention however misguided, stifle our dreams, hopes and desires. They aren't trying to be mean. Actually, they think they are helping by sparing us some disappointment. But what could be more disappointing than going to a job each day that makes us miserable?

Just a bit of FYI. Family and friends are usually the last person to support your dreams and desires. It's not that they do not love you, it's that they simply do not often respect your hopes, dreams and desires. It not only happens to us, but it happened to Jesus as well. Remember when he went back home to Nazareth? He didn't stay there too long because the people he grew up with kept saying, "Hey, isn't that the carpenter's son? What does he think he's doing?" To your close friends and family, you will always be the carpenters son.

Don't listen to your family. I am here to tell you, you can do and be anything you desire. You can and should live your life with a purpose. You can do whatever you believe you can do. If you can dream it, you can achieve it. The power is in the mind. The magic is in the believing.

If you believe, with all your heart, that you can do all things through Christ, than with Christ you CAN get a career in whatever it is you desire to do.

YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST.

Make up your mind to start living life with a purpose, God's purpose for your life, and sit back and watch how much you are able to do.

If you ever find yourself at the point where you are starting to doubt your ability to do something, just remember this one verse, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."

Make it a practice. Make it a habit. When you wake up each morning and thank the Lord for allowing you to see another day, just say to yourself, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."

When you find yourself at any point in life, slipping back into your old habits or old routines, simply say to yourself, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."

If you put this to practice every day, you will find yourself in the career designed exclusively for you in no time. A career designed exclusively for you, by God. A career that will help you serve others and yourself far more than you ever could on your present job. You will be living the life God intended you to live.

Happy, healthy and Blessed!!!

Has God been speaking to me lately?

2010-03-08T09:56:00.011+08:00

Sorry guys, am going to just divert a little away from describing my KL trip, to the topic above. Ever so often, I assess myself and ask the question above, "Has God been speaking to me lately?". Yes, you can say that I AM 'desperate' for God to constantly assure me and provide me with the confidence to know that He is there, He is watching, He is in-control and that I'm living in His will. No other confidence and assurance will give me the peace which I need to daily walk and continue living in this world.

For the past 1 month, God has been pointing to me to a block of His words from the bible, which is in 1 Corinthians 13.

1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

The first occurence God re-pointed these verses out to me was during the morning of my brother's wedding in KL, which was on the 7th February 2010. It was an honour to me because, only on that morning, was I told that I had to read 1 Corinthians 13 to about 50 family members who attended the morning service at Lynn's house! That morning, I remembered, I was quite stressed out (due to last minute), I felt unprepared but I had to go through them, word by word, and make sure that I understood what I was reading and my pronounciations were correct. My principal was that I will not 'preach' or quote God's words to others if I am not already convinced in my heart about the verses, or if I have not yet lived out that particular promise in my life already else I'll feel like a hypocript. So, in that short period of time, I truely was desperate for God to really touched me with those words and asked God for Him to speak through me. Well, God didn't touch me as deeply as I expected, but I had to go up and do the reading anyway, but what God did happened a few days later.

So, for the next few days after that, when I encountered any situation where I was tempted to be impatient, felt jealous, judegemental and unloving towards another person I met, I will feel the tug in my heart and these verses will show up clearly, reminding me of what it is to love. At first, it didn't seem so obvious to me, that God is really sterring me towards the verses above. I mean, hey, I grew up in church, sang songs about 'love in patient and kind etc', SO many times, and I can even memorise them, both chinese and english version. I've been generally a loving nad kind person, I try not to compare myself to others, so I don't get jealous and yeah, I'm quite selfless...And I always thought that 'love' is a piece-of-cake lar!

Well, no...God proved me wrong! God wanted me to learn how to re-apply His principal of love during relationships that I was in (new or old) and AM in right now, taking me to different areas of my life, where I had to cringe, struggle and in the end, give it up to Him. To really learn what love is all about. It helps though, that I know the song of love so well, and have memorised it. Love is not just all talk. Love is a verb. It requires me to take a conscious decision to follow what He requires of me, and not what my selfish desire wants. It is the yielding to the promting of the holy spirit to put others needs before myself.

As reinforcements, God pointed me to a few good books about love while I was in KL, one of them being "Love is a Verb" by Gary Chapman. A really good motivational book, compling true stories put in action, very touching and I highly recommend it.

Then, God didn't stop there. Again, it was during the 1-year memorial service of a friend of WL, on the 26th February, that I heard the exact verses again preached by the pastor and it was already so obvious that God is speaking...and this time, I replied to God saying, "Hey God, thank you! I heard you loud and clear. I AM willing to learn and I am learning, can't you see?? Please give me some more time.." The pastor spoke of serving God, and that when we serve God out of fear, and not out of love, it is nothing. Many times, we may serve out of fear or guilt, but it should not be that way. So, at the end of that day, I didn't need to re-ask God if He was speaking to me, coz he already made it quite obvious.

Again, God spoke to me during the 3rd time regarding the verses above. That was when I came back to Brunei and attended the first sunday service in my church. Part of Pastor's sermon was on 2 Corinthians 13. Nah, it wasn't surprising to me anymore. I felt more of 'reverence fear' towards God when I heard it, because this was NO JOKE! God was so real!! Well, He IS real!

Psalm 138

2010-01-30T08:26:00.003+08:00

My prayer and meditation for today is in Psalm 138.

1 I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart;
before the "gods" I will sing your praise.
2 I will bow down toward your holy temple
and will praise your name
for your love and your faithfulness,
for you have exalted above all things
your name and your word.
3 When I called, you answered me;
you made me bold and stouthearted.
4 May all the kings of the earth praise you, O LORD,
when they hear the words of your mouth.
5 May they sing of the ways of the LORD,
for the glory of the LORD is great.
6 Though the LORD is on high, he looks upon the lowly,
but the proud he knows from afar.
7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble,
you preserve my life;
you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes,
with your right hand you save me.
8 The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me;
your love, O LORD, endures forever—
do not abandon the works of your hands.

My bro's wedding speech (Finally!)- DRAFT

2010-01-26T10:17:00.015+08:00

I have to prepare a wedding speech for my brother. Yes, he's told me about it weeks ago, but I've not prepared anything. And when he called me about it a few days ago, and asked me how it was going, I was like "Bro, how are you going to expect me to BRAG about you in front of 2000 people?? Brag that you're a maths and science quiz freak and that you're kind and caring? Noooooo!!!.." and he laughed. I told him that we'll try work out the speech together when I arrive in KL. Hehehe...

So, a mini introduction to my brother's wedding speech...

"Good evening ladies and gentleman. I can't believe there will come this day that I will have to stand here in front of all of you and brag about my all-so-familiar brother. But, here goes...

My brother grew up in the famous water village in Brunei, which is known to outsiders as Venice of the East. It's not as impressive as it sounds, because at that time, the water was brown and full of rubbish (and sadly to say, it IS still today!). Brother Choon is the 2nd eldest son in the family, of 3 boys and I am the youngest.

During our time living at the water village, brother Choon loves playing skateboard and flying kites on the roof tops with my other brothers, uncles and cousins. During his primary school years, he went to Chung Hwa Middle School where he excelled in his studies.

In his secondary school years, he went to Science College. My brother Choon and my other brother Khai were very popular in school. All the teachers know them because they are maths quiz and science quiz geniuses!. My brother Choon always appear on national television during the quizes and their school will always win the competition. Thus, explaining the many antique tropies we have at home, which my mom still keeps and treasures a lot! Besides that, Choon was also very involved in church activities. I remembered how impressed I was at him, being able to act so well in a drama. He acted as Jesus, who was beaten up and carrying the cross.

After Form 5, Choon was awarded with a Brunei Scholarship to do his A Levels in Ireland and I belive that was where he met my sister-in-law, Lynn. Every year, when he comes back to Brunei, he'll bring my mom and I lots of gifts, even up to today. He knew that I loved those gummy candies, and he'll bring lots home. Then, he began to teach me more girly stuffs like what a conditioner is, and how to polish my nails properly, encuraged me to carry handbags and put make up on and I believe he learnt them all from his 'girl-friend' at that time. Thank you Lynn!! :) Lynn is also a very good cook, so my brother encouraged me to pick up cooking and I have to say, most of my early cooking inspiration started off from her.

Before I continue, let me tell you some secrets about my brother. What are his likes and dislikes? My brother Choon loves to play badminton and basketball and he was very good at playing them, last time (not sure about now though!) And he also enjoys playing the guitar. When I was young, he would play his favourite song "Don't look back in anger by Oasis" and we would sing along together. Other things that he enjoyed doing were playing karem, cycling to the construction sites behind our house to 'explore' and also, helping my parents sell stuffs to the workers. One thing he cannot stand is uncooked chilli (you know, those you have with chicken rice!) And his favourite food is big pau, or anything that has pork in it and also, soft crab fried in chilli and garlic.

During my studies in England, I would occasionally visit my brother and Lynn during Christmas and Easter holidays. My brother and Lynn would bring me out to eat and shop which is a real treat for me!! Our Must-Go's food outlet include Hong Kong dimsum and All-you-can eat Sushi, which I enjoyed very much. For the sushi, we have to eat as much as we can in 1 hour! And we'll be SO full and feel so guilty after that! And, as a return for his treat, I'll offer to wash his car in the cold the next morning! Heehee..

Choon loves to do magic trics and he's very entertaining in that way. All his tricks are very original, and because I'm his sister, he'll tell me the secrets behind those tricks. Well, you can ask him to show you one or two, and you'll be impressed!! Besides that, we also enjoyed playing charades together (with Lynn), which was really fun and he never failed to make me laugh with his jokes and also, impress me with stories about things that happened at work or during his travels to other countries or news from around the world and one of his favorite subject is and I guess will always be "Who won THE greatest invention this year?". Besides that, Choon also loves to venture into cooking. He was the one who taught me how to make siu mai. Besides that, other cooking adventures included a failed attempt to make tofoofah. But I must say, cooking with my brother is always fun weather it is a failure or success.

My brother Choon, is an enthusiastic and responsible person. He is deligent in his work and puts his full attention into what he is doing. He is passionate about what he does, and is determined to work on something until he gets it right. He's someone I can tease and have fun with, and at the same time, he's someone I can trust and talk about serious stuffs with. When I ask for his advice or opinions, he always gives me logical advice and state out the consequences. I appreciates my brother that he never pushes or force me to do anything, but encourages me to make my own decision wisely. "

CHOON'S BIODATA

Favourite drink: cold ribena or cold and super thick horlicks
Favourite food: big pau or spicy food like chilli crab, or any seafood
Favourite places: Factory outlets
Game: wii
Allergies: sun
Hates: uncooked chilli
Favourite sports: badminton & basketball & wrestling
Favourite basketball player: Michael Jordan
No. of girlfriends: kennot be revealed (secret)
Been bitten: jellyfish
Favourite brand: Nike
Known stunts: able to rotate a basketball on one finger for 1 minute

Cooking Adventure!

2010-01-26T09:21:00.007+08:00

Yes, I've been quite addicted to cooking/baking lately after I bought my super cool multi-task blender which weighs stuffs, blends, knit, stir-fry, steam, and is temperature-controlled! It's super cool! It's name is Thermomix TM31, and it's been designed by 120 engineers!

So, yeah, Ellin introduced to me this super baby of mine. And I've been making lemondade, parsley drinks, soya bean drink(in 20 mins) out of it. The other day, I made pumpkin and mushroom soup in 20 mins. Also made pau and mantou from it in less than 1 hour. Last night, I ventured into Ham Chim Peng (both the salty and sweet ones) and my brother loves it! My mom loves it too. I also made kaya in 20 mins! It's super fast and taste really good.

In the next few days, I'm going to be venturing into making 3-in-1 chicken rice where I can cook the rice, steam the chicken and make the soup, all at one go! Also, want to try making the chicken pau and red-bean pau. And lastly, I want to try making the ice-cream. Currently thinking of making coconut ice-cream, but maybe when I get to buy ripe mangoes from supa save, I can hopefully make mango ice-cream! And then, I want to try making otak-otak also! Hehehe..But I don't think I have so much time to do those before my holidays!

So, that's that. Something happened to me this morning. My mother gave me some vitamins to eat and she didn't know/didn't warn me that the calcium tablets were for chewing and I swallowed the whole thing with a glass of water, which left me choking nearly to death! Then, I went to vomit my breakfast out 3x and felt much better afterwards. So ladies and gentleman, if you see round, flat looking calcium tablets, please read instructions as to whether they are to be swallowed whole or chewed. Shamed on me though for I am in the pharmacy line...so, take your own risk if you approach me about your medicines! Hehehe...

Updates

2010-01-16T09:33:00.007+08:00

Dear friends,

Sorry, it's been a while since I updated properly. Been busy with work and other things. It's been raining a lot in Brunei lately, and it's been so cold both at the office and at home, I felt almost like I'm in the UK again. This morning, I woke up wishing that there is a heating system around the house eventhough I didn't turn the aircon on last night! Hehehe..yeah, haven't wish that for a long time. However, because of the rainy weather, I've not been able to do a lot of my hiking and jogging outdoors lately, so just staying at home and use the cross trainier.

Yeap, am also dieting. To keep fit and also for health + so that I won't look so chubby in the dress for my brothers wedding! Hehehe...So, I've been living on oats, vegies, sashimi, salads, tofu, chicken breast meat, cereals, fresh fruit juice...basically, I try to stick to a high protein and low fat diet. It's been working amazing I have to say, with all the workout - hiking at shahbandar, tasik, jogging around my neighbourhood, squash and badminton. I feel amazing too! I lost about 1 kg in 2 weeks!

Workwise - Hmm..I've just finished with doing the tenders evaluations and went for tender meeting on Thursday. Currently, I've got 3 product complains to write a report on, to do the sokongan letters to procument, waiting for product recall feedback from end-users, got to key in the database for items received from the state medical store + got to start cracking on the balance score card before meeting next week. Great! Somedays, I just don't feel like coming to work. I wake up while my alarm snoozes and, pressed the snooze button again. Then, open my eyes and look up to the ceilling, wishing I didn't have to go to work. Then, I start to motivate myself by thinking of what I should wear to work? So my mind will go through my wardrobe, and pick something nice. During the thought process, my brain actually wakes up, think about something exciting and I will just forget about not wanting to go to work...So, then, I'd get up and dress up! Hehehe!

My baby car is ill currently, and is in the workshop for inspection and repair. I was driving on Thursday and realised that there were steam coming out from the front, and the car was 'trembling'. Then I saw that the needle has indicated that my car was at the 'hot' stage. Not knowing what to do, I just prayed and ask God to bring me safely home. Thank God though, that the weather was cooling and slightly raining, so my baby car didn't get too heated up! Then, the next day, my godparents came and investigated it, then we sent it to the workshop. They said one of the radiator fans was broken...sumthing like that!

Besides that, I'm looking forward to my holidays in about 2.5 weeks time! Hoping to meet the following people in KL:
1.Wei Leong,
2. JD
3. Peng Aun
4. Ee Ling
5. Sinli...+
6. WL's friends from MAPS and church

Hoping to meet the following people in Singapore:
1. Pamela
2. Andrew
3. Boon Seong
4. Zi Jing
5. Lina
6. Adeline
7. Daniel
8. Zhong Yong
9. Sandra
10. Laura
11. Xinyi
12. Kenny Gan + Bee Lee

Lead me to the cross

2010-01-12T10:18:00.003+08:00

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zuwm5H8-Kw&feature=player_embedded

Savior I come

Quiet my soul remember

Redemptions hill

Where Your blood was spilled

For my ransom

Everything I once held dear

I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross

Where Your love poured out

Bring me to my knees

Lord I lay me down

Rid me of myself

I belong to You

Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I

Tempted and trialed

You are

The word became flesh

Bore my sin and death

Now you're risen

To your heart

Lead me to your heart

At The Beginning by Donna Lewis

2010-01-10T01:56:00.005+08:00

After work today, I went to pick my nephew and mom up and then we went to hike at Shahbandar. Then, went back to my brother's house and hang out. I was really tired and fell asleep when I was sitting on the floor watching TV with the couch supporting my back. And when I woke up, my mischievious nephew smiled at me. He then sat next to me, and pretended to sleep like how I slept. How naughty!!

Then, I had dinner with my brother and his wife. My brother made baked lamb today, with potatoes and carrots. As I'm currently on a diet, I tried not to eat too much rice and had the lamb, picking out the fatty parts!

Later in the evening, I went online and caught up with some friends whom I've not had time to keep up with during weekdays, at the same time, watching Anastasia. I fell in love with this song. But actually, all the other songs from the movie are really nice too e.g. Once upon a December but currently, I really like this song.

So, I'd like to actually dedicate this love song to my brother in Dublin and his wife for their recent marriage. That reminds me, I have to prepare a very special wedding speech for their wedding reception in February!

We were strangers, starting out on a journey

Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through

Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing

At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you

Unexpected, what you did to my heart

When I lost hope, you were there to remind me

This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going

Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing

Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you...

Knew there was somebody, somewhere

A new love in the dark

Now I know my dream will live on

I've been waiting so long

Nothing's gonna tear us apart

And life is a road that I wanna keep going

Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing

Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure

Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true

Now here we stand, unafraid of the future

At the beginning with you

Overjoyed!

2010-01-09T14:16:00.008+08:00

Today I received my SUPER COOL 'late' Christmas & New Year gifts from Wei Leong and it made my day~!As you can see in the picture, there is a
-christmas card
- Hillsong's latest album: Faith + Hope + Love
-Open the Door from China CD + DVD
- a really COOL evangelism cube
-WL's own created watchnight and christmas video Edition 2.001 (hehe!)
-chilli floss for me to devour and
-also a cute note for the customs officer saying "Nothing suspicious inside here!" Hahaha!

So far, I've been listening to some of the songs and I really like Track No.4 from Open the Door, and I've also been devouring the chilli floss as my treat for being good for the past few days, and playing with the cube instead of doing work! Hahaha! Loving all my gifts to bits!

Thank you darling for making my day GREAT! :D

Reflections of 2009

2010-01-03T21:44:00.004+08:00

How do you know what will happen tomorrow? For your life is like the morning fog - it's here a little while, then it's gone. JAMES 4:14

Here's a brief summary of how God has been faithful in my life throughout 2009 and how He has graciously brought me through every storm or uncertainties.

January 2009 - I still had not recieved any salary after working for 5 months and I was getting a bit worried.

February 2009 - God answered prayers. I was was given instructions to do my medical check up so that I can be paid. Grandma in Miri passed away.

March 2009 - Had to learn to live alone for 2 weeks coz mom had to stay in Miri to be with her family. God brought me through that! Praise the Lord, my salary is sorted and I got all my pay. Got involved with YF and Worship team (as back-up singer).

April 2009 - Learning to cope with work life, stress and dealing with relationships with different people. Praying for a seekers group to start in our church.

June 2009 - Got involved with YF Camp and get to know the youths better. Mom left for UK for 3 months.

July 2009 - Praise God that He sustained me through 1 month of being home alone.

August 2009 - Praise God that Nerissa and Wei Leong was able to visit me in Brunei. Praise God that the seekers group was formed!

October 2009 - Praise God that I am able to go to Cambodia for a Mission Trip and was able to experience how it's like to be in missions.

November 2009 - Praise God that Wei Leong could come and visit me again and also, Praise God that got my permanent posting confirmed!

December 2009 - Praise God that I'm still alive and still passionate about Him! Praise God for bringing WL and I through another year.

Like someone once said, when you are in the boat and there is a storm, Jesus is with you. Don't ask 'Why' but ask 'What'. What does God wants you to learn through it? Definitely, my year has been amazing yet exciting. There were times where I just hand to hang on, eventhough I did not understand what was going on, but just trusting that the Lord knows what is best for me.

Thank God for bringing me through yet another year!

What kind of love is this?

2009-12-22T15:06:00.013+08:00

Just last week, a friend and I were discussing about how we can love other people (especially brothers-and-sisters) who has hurt us or betrayed us. We talk about forgiveness all the time, but what is actually forgiving? In my life, there are a few instances, where I had to give up self pride or whatever you call it, and just love another person whom, I felt, is unlovable and why on earth should I give them my time and attention. But because of the love of God, I learnt, in small ways, that life becomes much richer, meaningful and it actually sets me free from the feeling of unforgiveness or bitterness.

Today, I come across an article. below are the words of a servant of God, who has served Him with all her heart and whom I believe, has been through a LOT in life to be able to write these things. I just want to share this with you and hope that it will touch you as much as it has touched me.

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If God calls us to love one another—and even our enemies—then pain is inevitable. When I love, I make myself vulnerable. I cannot hide behind methods or tasks or busyness. I am called to step out of my comfort zone, to offer nothing but my vulnerable self. And that, sometimes, can be incredibly painful.

I live in a world at war, a world that tells me that I have to be tough in order to survive. I have to face people—some of them brothers and sisters in Christ—that slap me in the face. And, I have to admit, I am like them.

Why should I want to love, when I get nothing in return…or if what I get is not what I want? Why want to be vulnerable? Being soft and open is going to break your heart, time and time again. I hear people say “Keep your eyes on Jesus”, the implication being “…and everything will be fine.” But what do I see when I look at Jesus?

Cross-eyed
He, with the closest relationship with the Father, didn’t seem to be in a very safe place. Obedience didn’t come automatically. Everything within Him cries out in Gethsemane: “Father: is there no other way out? I don’t want to die! Why does radical obedience to your way lead me to the cross? Why do I have to go through this total agony of being abandoned even by You…especially by You?”

He wrestled through the night in deep loneliness and despair, with no one to comfort and support Him. In darkness His will became one with the Father’s. But pain was still pain and the cross was still the cross. Even there, the Son who received everything from His Father’s hands offered it to Him in return.

What kind of love is this? What kind of Father is this, that Jesus was ready to give up everything? There must be something incomprehensible to gain, something impossible to resist. Even death itself surrendered to this love between Jesus and His Father which flowed between them by the Holy Spirit.

This same Spirit is living in those who believe—including me! Jesus says: “Dance with me“—not in a fancy ballroom, but in a broken world. His eyes shine. I see warmth, acceptance, courage, strength and compassion. Pain did not make Him hard and bitter, but soft and compassionate. With Him, I feel safe. I almost forget about myself, and yet, I’m more myself than ever before.

I love you, Jesus: with my broken heart, my wounds and failures, my talents and abilities, with all that I am. You don’t first ‚fix’me, but welcome me as I am and that is what changes me. I want You to have all of me!

“As the Father has loved me,
so have I loved you. Now
remain in my love. If you
obey my commands, you
will remain in my love, just
as I have obeyed my Father’s
commands and remain in
his love. I have told you this
so that my joy may be in you
and that your joy may be
complete. My command is
this: Love each other as I have
loved you. John 15:9–12

The Prayer, Celine Dion & Andrea Bocelli

2009-12-17T16:26:00.002+08:00

I pray You’ll be our eyes,
and watch us where we go,
and help us to be wise
in times when we don’t know.

Let this be our prayer
when we lose our way:

Lead us to a place,
Guide us with Your grace
To a place where we’ll be safe.

La luce che Tu dai (The light that You give us)
I pray we’ll find Your light
Nel cuore resterà (will stay in our hearts)
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarci che (reminding us that…)
When stars go out each night
L’eterna stella sei (You are the everlasting star).

Nella mia preghiera (In my prayer).
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c’è (there’s so much faith)
When shadows fill our day:

Lead us to a place,
Guide us with Your grace,
Give us faith so we’ll be safe.

Sognamo un mondo senza più violenza (We dream [of] a world without more violence)
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza (A world of justice and of hope). Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino (Everyone give your hand to your neighbor),
Simbolo di pace e di fraternità (Symbol of peace and brotherhood)

La forza che ci dai (The strength You give us)
We ask that life be kind
È il desiderio che (is the wish that)
And watch us from above.
Ognuno trovi amore (everyone may find love)
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a sè (around and within himself)
Another soul to love.

Let this be our prayer
(Let this be our prayer)
Just like every child
(Just like every child)
Needs to find a place:

Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we’ll be safe.

E la fede che (And the faith that)
Hai acceso in noi (You have lit inside us)
Sento che ci salverà (I believe will save us).

Jesus, You are Magnificent

2009-12-17T09:49:00.005+08:00

This morning, while doing my work and enjoying listening to some praise and worship songs played through my headphones, I felt somehow, moved to write this post after listening to this song - Magnificent.

Who compares to You?

Who set the stars in their place?

You who calmed the raging seas

That came crashing over me

Who compares to You?

You who bring the morning light

The hope of all the earth

Is rest assured in Your great love

You are magnificent, eternally

Wonderful, glorious

Jesus

No one ever will compare to You

Jesus

Where the evening fades

You call forth songs of joy

As the morning wakes

We Your children give You praise

Yeah, so I was reminded through this song that God still loves me very much (despite all my shortcomings) and I was reminded of how MAGNIFICENT God is through the lyrics of this song. He who sets the stars in place and calm the ranging sea? Who or What can compare to Him? Can your loved one, father, mother, boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, wife, children? Of course, the answer is obviously 'No'. Can even God's ministry for you compare to Him and who He is? But often, we, because of our sinful nature, put these people or put our ministry puts these things before God. Also, can our life circumstances compare to who Jesus is? Again, the answer should be 'No'. But why do we again and again, let the circumstances of our lives cripple us and retard us from progressing up to a higher level with our Lord, thus hindering us from the ABUNDANT and VICTORIOUS life that He has called us to?

When we sing this song, we sing, "No one ever will ever compare to You Jesus", but do we live this out in our daily lives? Do people see it in our lives? So often, we fail in living up to what we usually sing in our worship songs and this, I believe this can also directly or indirectly become a bad testimony to the christians or non-christians in our lives. In life, we often compromise, and we compromise every second because of our filthy sinful nature.

However, I believe this is a worthy challenge for myself (and hopefully for you too) to have a think about it and challenge yourself to really think about if you really mean what you sing during your private or corporate worship session with the Lord.

Whatever things that we possess today, the people that we enjoy being with and people who are most dear to us are only GIVEN to us by God's grace, and we certainly do not deserve all these.

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? Romans 8:35

Put your trust in Him. He is Your shield. Have a great day my friends, and Blessed Christmas!

Wei Leong's 4th Day in Brunei

2009-12-02T22:00:00.003+08:00

On Tuesday, 22nd November 2009...

On Tuesday morning, I think I woke up quite late at around 9am. After soozing in bed for about 15 mins, I got up to switch on a DVD - Joseph the Dreamer. I was missing a few songs from that DVD for some reason, and felt so much like singing that morning cause I was in a happy mood. Wei Leong was still in his room. And I so wanted him to come out so that I can see him.

After a while WL came out and sat at the living room to watch what I was doing, and I sat next to him, while mom was busy in the kitchen. Then we had breakfast together and had a little chat.

Mom fried sotong bee hoon and eggs for breakfast. WL said that his mom used to also make half boiled eggs for him too when he was in school. Over breakfast, WL and mom attempted to make conversations with each other, and it was quite funny. Mom's english was improving, but some of her pronounciation weren't so great. At the same time, she mixed chinese with english, which made the conversation with WL even funnier. I had great fun listening to them converse. WL is also a fast learner, and he picked up many mandarin very quickly. He said that he watches mandarin series, so he can understand what we are saying.

Anyway, after breakfast we went to the bank again coz mom had to pay the house contractor, then we went to visit Amaci. Amaci was trilled and happy to see WL and gave him a BIG kiss on both his cheeks. Then she served us some biscuits and her home made fried fish. It taste really good!**

After that, we were going to go down to Miri. So, we went home and pack our things. Mom couldn't decide if she wanted to come along or not. She kept changing her mind, and in the end, WL and I left the house without her and when we were just about to turn off to Jerudong, mom called me and said she wanted to go. So I went home to pick her up and got a little pissed off. Then, what happened in the car...erm..I rather not mention. WL will tell you...

Nothing much happened during our journey down except that we stopped by Seria to have our late lunch. I had kolo mee, and WL had a kind of deep fried noodles with special sauce in it (which he ordered in cantonese), and mom had Watan Ho. Seria is still the same, small and quiet with only a few row of shops.

Then, we were at the immigration. WL got really pissed off because the officer stamped on his passport a 30 day pass into Malaysia only! That's really weird I thought coz WL is a Malaysian and WL isn't too happy either. I think they must have made a mistake or something!

We arrived at Miri town at around 4.30pm and mom said she wanted to get off in town near my uncle's shop. I drove around town, pointing out to WL the locations of my uncles shops. I have 4 uncles and 4 aunties in Miri and 4 uncles in Bintulu. After that, we went to drive around the hill area near my aunties house then, pass by Miri Hospital. We stopped by the road side for a while to look at the beautiful sceneries there.

After that, we met up with Yvonne (Yii Fen), our long lost friend whom we've not met in ages. Yvonne is a friend I met in University and whom WL has helped a lot when Yvonne was looking for a job in KL. I could tell that she was also very happy to see us. We had dinner together at a local seafood restaurant, and Yvonne ordered 7 dishes which we ate until very full. During our dinner, we exchanges stories about how we've been doing and updated Yvonne on how the other Solid Rockers were doing. Also, at the same time, WL made a surprise call to Rudi Cheu who was in KL at that time, and we really caught him by surprise! He couldn't figure out who we were at first!

Anyway, dinner was fun. After that, Yvonne sent us back to my aunt's house and we bid farewell with hugs, and reminded Yvonne to come and look for me if she ever comes to Brunei and I will do the same when I go down to Miri. There was no one in my aunts house, so WL and I went to my uncles house and found everyone else there (my mom, aunts and cousins). WL spoke to my aunts mother and my aunty in cantonese. I was really tired at that time, but mom was nagging to me about something at the table and I was getting quite impatient/upset/quiet, until WL softly wispered through my ears not to ignore my mom. So, I did what he adviced me and thus, I felt better.

That night, we went back to my aunts place to sleep. WL slept with Daniel in one room, while I slept with mom, auntie and my other cousin, Ah Bi.

My Day Today

2009-12-01T20:16:00.010+08:00

These few days, it has been raining a lot in Brunei. Either it's very cloudy and the sky looks very dull or it is raining. It has been really gloomy and cold in the office and past few days were just perfect for sleeping. The weather reminds me of UK and now, I'm thinking about how RFTS went.

Anyway, today was quite a productive day at work. I managed to finish up most of the pending work + other stuffs, and at the same time, enjoyed chatting with WL and several other people for a while. Siti is great fun to be with also. After work, I went to the gym and met one of my primary school friend whom I didn't recognise but later on, he came to me and say "Hey! You can't remember me!" And I blinked and refocussed my brain, and then remembered who he was. Heehee. I joined Body Jam class for 1 hour and Siti came a lil bit later. After class, I went to the gym to work out on the cross trainer for about 10 mins, then I gave up and went to Soon Lee to shop for my breakfast tomorrow which is cereals + milk. Then, came home and tidied my room a bit and tidied up my papers at the same time, my brain is trying to process and recall what WL did on his 3rd day in Brunei.

So, how I wish now I was smart like him to write down what we did during the week. Anyway, I'll try my best to recall.

Permanent Posting

2009-11-07T16:03:00.004+08:00

Dear Friends,

I received my letter of confirmation for my posting yesterday and Praise the Lord, that I was backdated to November 2008, meaning that I have been working as a permanent employee for the past year and now I am able to have my 48 days holiday starthing this month. Please don't congratulate me, because it's only the Lord which allows me to be back-dated and I do not have to wait another year to get my holidays (YES, paid holidays. That's what's good about working with the government.

However, due to the accreditation council's decision, any graduates who did a 4 year Master degree are considered as UNDERGRADUATES (first degree) thus, we are paid only at a Bachelor's degree scale. This was really really annoying when I found out, and I was really am not satisfied with it, but then again, I have to learn to trust in the Lord and give thanks to Him for what He has planned. I realised that my human nature is so greedy and always comparing myself to others, especially when I know what my colleages get (ha!ha!). But I believe through this, God is again teaching me to learn to let go of worldly riches, set my priorities right and look forward and hope on things which are everlasting. If I don't learn such a little lesson right now, there will be SO many things I can be unhappy about, or dissatisfied about in the future, which will really put me on the grill.

On a side note: I'm going through a tough patch in my life right now in terms of relationship. I don't see how it is practical to move on with it and also seeing that both of us have different dreams and goals to achieve in life. I am really sad though, but trusting in the Lord that ALL things work for the GOOD of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.

Yup! So, that's all for the updates for now. May you have a blessed weekend ahead! God bless.

Yan Shiang

Speechless by Steven Curtis

2009-11-03T09:56:00.004+08:00

I just want to say thank you to a friend who shared with me this song recently, which as been really meaningful and building me up! Praise the Lord! May we stand in awe of Him daily.

Words fall like drops of rain

My lips are like clouds

I say so many things

Trying to figure you out

But as mercy opens my eyes

My words are stolen away

With this breathtaking view of your grace

And I am speechless I'm astonished and amazed

I am silenced by your wondrous grace

You have saved me

You have raised me from the grave

And I am speechless in your presence now

I'm astounded as I consider how

You have shown us

A love that leaves us speechless

So what kind of love could this be

That would trade heaven's throne for a cross

And to think you still celebrate

Over finding just one who was lost

And to know you rejoice over us

The God of this whole universe

It's a story that's too great for words

Oh how great is the love

The father has lavished upon us

That we should be called

The sons and the daughters of god

We are speechless so amazed

We stand in awe of your grace

We stand in awe of your mercy

You have saved us

We stand in awe of your love

From the grave

We are speechless

We are speechless in your presence now

We stand in awe of your cross

We're astounded as we consider how

We stand in awe of your power

You have shown us

A love that leaves us speechless

We are speechless

I am speechless

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYXHLf3QJXI

Do

2009-10-28T11:36:00.003+08:00

Do you know what you can do if you have bad breath e.g. if you just had a lot of garlic? Try taking a spoonfull of yoghurt. It will make the smell go away instantly.

Do you know what you can do if your wife/husband/housemate was cooking curry or something strong and the smell penetrates into your room and you want to remove the smell? Try burn a candle in your room for a few minutes, it will remove the smell.

Do you know what you can do if you're cutting an onion, and it stings your eye? Try washing the onion over water each time you slice through the onion. The vapour from the onion will dissolve in the running water, instead of on the water on your eyes which stings it.

Do you know what you can do if you have a stomach ache and just needs to go to that toilet instantly, but you are stuck in the car in traffic? Scare yourself by imagining a crocodile or a ghost coming after you. When you are scared, the muscles contractions in your body works in a way that you don't want to go to toilet anymore.

What can you do if you are watching a scarry movie and was so scared that you wanna just go out of the room, but you're too embarassed because everyone will call you a sissy? Try closing your ears with your hands to block the sounds from the movie. You will not be scared at all, even if you are watching it.

A Funny Story

2009-10-27T20:08:00.003+08:00

So, I met this local friend, while I was in Cambodia last two weeks. He's a really nice and chatty chap and told us an incident he was in recently.

He said he was riding his motorbike one day, and suddently he felt a really sharp pain on his appendix area! So painful that he collapsed and someone sent him to a hospital. In the hospital, he woke up and was forced to sign some papers, where he was told that he needs to go for an operation. Feeling so desperate, because he was in so much pain, he signed the papers. But to his shock, he later spoke to his mother and found out that the price was way tooo much! So his mother arranged for him to leave that hospital and move to another hospital, where his mother knows somebody there.

So, my friend went to the other hospital and he was in lots of pain. That afternoon, he was lying down on the hospital bed and was given an intravenous tube for his salt and glucose supply as he needs to fast before his operation. The nurse came and stick an injection into his arm, and couldn't find what she was looking for. My friend told the nurse that it was painful, and she withdraw the needle and poke it at another area. After 2 or 3 attempts, my friend got so fed up and this was their conversation.

Friend: Hey! Painful lah!!
Nurse: Be A MAN!!! (awwww....poor thing!!)
Friend: What the!!!!!

Anyway, my friend finally went for his operation and had his appendix removed. Later, I found out something I didn't know before. The inflammation of the appendix is caused by unknown reasons. But much to my dismay, I have always believed that appendicitis is caused by moving too much, running too much or exercising too much after you take your meals. But I was told that what I believed was only a myth.

On Stormy Seas - John 6:16-29

2009-10-08T21:57:00.004+08:00

The night was dark. The wind was blowing. The waves threatened the little boat in which the disciples traveled. They were hanging on for their lives.

Having grown up along the shores of the Sea of Galilee, the disciples were accustomed to storms rising unexpectedly. The fishermen in the group were used to the rigors of the sea. But this time it was different.

In the midst of this terrible storm, Jesus appeared to them-walking on the water. At first, Jesus' presence increased the disciples' fear. They did not expect him, and they had never seen anything like this. They thought they were seeing a ghost. But in the middle of the stormy sea of far, Jesus called out, "I am here! Don't be afraid." He calmed the disciples' hearts and showed them that he was more powerful than the storm.

Jesus wants you to know that he will come to you in the midst of life's struggles, and he wants you to know that he is more powerful than even the mightiest storm. One of the most important truths God will teach you is that Jesus is bigger than the struggles in your life. His presence may scare you at first. He may surprise you at a time when you are so focused on your own struggles that you are tempted to look right past him. But when you encounter him and he speaks to your heart - "I am here! Don't be afraid"-you will never be the same again.

Next time you are caught in life's stormy seas, look expectantly for Jesus to meet you where you are, and depend on his pwer to calm your fears and anxieties.

Taken from Devotions for Men on the Go (Stephen Arterburn and Bill Garrel)

Cambodia, Phnom Phen

2009-10-08T21:35:00.005+08:00

My dearest brothers-and-sisters in the Lord,

I will be leaving for missons soon for about 9 days.

Please do pray for us, as we travel. That the Lord will help NEVER fear the Jordans we must cross or the battles we must fight. To give us courage in every step. Pray for the immigration, that everything will go smoothly as we will be lugging 200 over kilos of medicines. Pray for the weather as well, that the Lord will protect us from any natural disasters. Pray that we will be protected from any contagious diseases. Pray for the orphans and villages whom we will be giving medical aid to. Pray for their souls to be saved and come to the saving grace of our Lord Jesus Christ.

May the Lord be glorified through it all,

Yan Shiang

Joshua to Succeed Moses

2009-09-17T10:35:00.008+08:00

Deuteronomy 31:1-8 - Joshua to Succeed Moses

1 Then Moses went out and spoke these words to all Israel: 2 "I am now a hundred and twenty years old and I am no longer able to lead you. The LORD has said to me, 'You shall not cross the Jordan.' 3 The LORD your God himself will cross over ahead of you. He will destroy these nations before you, and you will take possession of their land. Joshua also will cross over ahead of you, as the LORD said. 4 And the LORD will do to them what he did to Sihon and Og, the kings of the Amorites, whom he destroyed along with their land. 5 The LORD will deliver them to you, and you must do to them all that I have commanded you. 6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
7 Then Moses summoned Joshua and said to him in the presence of all Israel, "Be strong and courageous, for you must go with this people into the land that the LORD swore to their forefathers to give them, and you must divide it among them as their inheritance.

8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

For some of you, who are on my msn friends list, you must know that I have put up the colured verse as my 'nick' a few days ago and also, as something that I can remember and remind myself daily, to use it in all circumstances in my life until I fully grasp the full meaning of it. I have to say that I am deeply encouraged that within just 1 or 2 days of putting up the verse, a few people has come to me and say that they have been blessed through the verse. I am deeply encouraged by how the Lord works in the lives of people, even my muslim colleague finds it really good. May the Lord bless all the hearts who are receptive to His word. Worthy is the Lord! Halelujah Amen!

So, in the above scene, Moses was about to hand over his roles and responsibilities to Joshua. Joshua, like me, being young and inexperienced, is certainly feeling really anxious. Thus, Moses reassured Joshua that the Lord will go ahead of him in all that he does, and there is nothing to be afraid of. Many times, I can be afraid of changes, new things, uncertainties and all, but the verse reminds us not to be afraid, but to be courageous because the Lord is with us all the time.

So, if Joshua was to succeed Moses, it really does challenge me to think then WHO am I to succeed? Obviously, the answer is JESUS Christ. We are his heirs as written in Romans 8:17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Every child of God will have a calling. God calls us to follow Christ, follow His voice, follow and go with faith to wherever He calls us. Put your whole trust in Him and just follow. Let Him take full control, wherever He may lead, we will just follow. I must say, I am still learning this lesson myself everyday. Dying to self desire is painful and we will suffer as we tear away from our sinful nature, and live to Christ. But that is what we are called to do.

Everyone is faced with all sorts of difficulties, problems and uncertainties everyday, but take courage my dear friends, for the Lord is with you always, and He will lead you. He will never leave or forsake you. As Paul said in Romans 18:8 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

Side note:

My mummy is now back in Brunei after a looooong holiday in UK. I praise the Lord for her safe journey back here. Definitely nice to have mom back again, to help me with my clothes and food. Hahaha! Praise the Lord also for bringing me through these 3 months of not-so-lonely periods. Praise the Lord also for bringing mom through the 3 months of deepening relationship with my brothers, their wives and children.

Praise the Lord also for my wonderful friend and beloved, partner in Christ, Wei Leong Cheah. I love you.

Jesus you are the Savior of my soul!

The Star!

2009-09-12T16:35:00.004+08:00

A story written by a mysterious someone...Illustrating Jesus Christ saving a girl (in Manga style)

Once upon a time, there was a girl named ys. This particular girl saw the earth as holy and pure. After many years, the darkness came and overwhelmed the earth, tainting and corrupting everything it touches. ys say the darkness and wept for the darkness known no bounds and would consume her one day. She cried and pleaded to the heavens for help.

Months went by and as all hope flickers away from her, the darkness grew stronger and stronger and started to consume the area she was standing upon. But the heavens heard her cry and opened. A star struck the darkness in the heart and the darkness fled from ys. The star looked upon ys and out came a voice....

"Do not be afraid ys. I have come to save you and to redeem all which is tainted."

The name of the star was known as JESUS Christ, the messiah and redeemer.

On Grumbling

2009-09-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

James 5:9 Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door!

Dear friends,

I have chosen the above verse to write as a reflection of what God is teaching me today. Actually, today, I have been hearing a lot of people, even people from the family of Christ, and sad to say, even my own family members, grumbling towards one another behind their back.

Human beings are full of sin, and pride. The root of why people are grumbling is perhaps everyone is just different. Everyone just thinks that they, themselves are right, their opinion is right, they are doing the best, and they have sacrificed a lot, they have been patient etc, and of course, the other party HASN'T.

Sometimes, we even to to the extent of trying to put ourselves in other people's shoes, but it will be impossible to completely know the other person inside out. Only God will know us, and there is no point trying and striving so hard to rise to other people's expectation, except to rise to God's expectation is enough.

God has always reminded me of the verse above, and it is a really strict instruction from the Lord, where I should not grumble or complain about anything and this includes people, my work, my service to God, or anything else because James 5:9 says Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door!

Many times, and over the past years, when I am faced with times where I am tempted to grumble or complain about a situation in my life, or people, or whatever, I will always remember this verse. Though, I have to give thanks to God because He has been patient with me and not holding it against me. I must say, I have grumbled and complained about many things in the past, during my lifetime, but each time, the Holy Spirit will remind me that I shouldn't do that. So, Praise God, He is still teaching me this lesson today again, and I pray that as time goes by, I will master this skill well.

Grumbling isn't a very nice thing actually. When you grumble, there are consequences. Either, you grumble and lead to gossiping of another party, and that isn't very nice, or you grumble and put on more stress on other people. When you grumble, you get even more confused and you will lose God's peace, so why let the devil take a foothold?

So anyway, that's my quick sharing for today. A friend once asked me how long does it take for me to write my blog. Actually, it's less than ten minutes. So, here's a quickie for you to read.

Have a great day ahead my dear friends!

With God's love,

Yan Shiang

Pre-Mission Trip Prayer Request

2009-09-10T10:01:00.003+08:00

Dear all,

I will be going on a medical mission trip to Cambodia next month from the 11th October to 18th October organised by His Healing Hands (Website: www.hishealinghands.com) and New Life Missions Church, then spending some time in Siam Reap and Singapore before coming back to Brunei on the 20th October. My mom will be joining me, together with 6 other representatives from Brunei.

Just a brief description of what the trip will be about. So, the team will make up of medical professionals from different countries, including Singapore, China, and US etc..and so far, we have doctors, nurses, nutritionists, pharmacists and healthcare assistants. So far, the team is made up of 30+ people and in addition to that, 10 locals will be there. Our aim is to set up clinics in different locations in the remote areas of northern cambodia, where the people there can come and seek medical help though the setting while the local christians who can speak their language, will be able to talk to them about Jesus Christ. So I do hope you can pray for us and with us about this. I am personally thankful that I am able to go for my first mission trip overseas, and I am expecting God to work wonders in everyone's life, who is part of this.

Side note: I'm also very thankful to the Lord in regards to how he has been slowly and gently stirring my mum's heart towards the man I love. A lot of prayers is still needed, but I am confident in the Lord in His plans and time for everything.

So, my dear friends, continue to seek the Lord in all that you do. Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways, aknowledge Him and He shall make your path straight. Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Praise the name of Jesus.

Yan Shiang

Sing A New Song

2009-09-10T07:14:00.002+08:00

Shout joyfully to the LORD, all the earth; break forth in song, rejoice, and sing praises. - Psalm 98:4

At age 94, Pastor Willis was admitted into a care facility. From his wheelchair, he shared with joy how God had given him a new mission field to share the gospel. When he was bedridden a few years later, he spoke with enthusiasm of being in the best possible position to look up to God. When he died at age 100, Pastor Willis left behind a legacy of one who sang a new song of praise at each turn on his earthly life.

Psalm 98 exhorts us to sing a new song for God who "has done marvelous things; His right hand and His holy arm have gained Him the victory" (v.1). We ought to praise Him - even in times of difficulty - for God remembers "His mercy and His faithfulness" (v.3). Though this psalm is about God freeing the Isrelites from slavery, it is prophetically also about our salvation through Jesus Christ our Lord. And as we remember what God has done for us, we can trust Him to help us with today's difficulties as well as tomorrow's uncertainties.

The psalmist wrote: "Let the sea roar, and all its fullness, the world and those who dwell in it;...let the hills be joyful together before the Lord" (vv.7-9). Let us join God's creation in singing praise to our Savior! - Albert Lee

I don't know about tomorrow,

Nor what coming days will bring;

But I know my Lord is with me,

And His praise my heart will sing. - Fitzhugh

A heart in tune with God sings melodies of praise.

Taken from: Our Daily Bread (17 August 2009)

His Sheep Am I

2009-09-09T21:38:00.002+08:00

In God's green pastures
feeding by His cool waters lie soft
In the evening walk my Lord and I;
All the sheep of His pasture fare
So wondrously fine.
His sheep am I...

Water's cool...
pasture's green...
in the evening Walk my Lord and I;

Dark the night...
Rough the way...
Step by step
Walk my Lord and I

In God's green pastures
feeding by His cool waters lie soft
In the evening walk my Lord and I;
All the sheep of His pasture fare
So wondrously fine.
His sheep am I...

Water's cool...
pasture's green...
in the evening
Walk my Lord and I;
Dark the night...
Rough the way...
Step by step
Walk my Lord and I

I Know Who Holds Tomorrow

2009-09-06T11:49:00.006+08:00

I don't know about tomorrow.
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine.
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry over the future.
For I know what Jesus said.
And today, I'll walk beside Him.
For I know what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow.
I don't seem to understand.
But I know who holds tomorrow.
And I know who holds my hand.
Everystep is getting brighter.
As the golden stairs I climb.
Every burden's getting lighter.
Every cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining.
There no tear will dim the eye.
At the end of the rainbow.
Where the mountains touch the sky.

I don't know about tomorrow.
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow.
Is the one who stands by me.
And the path, that be my portion.
May be through the flame or flood.
But His presence goes before me.
And I'm covered with His blood.

Youtube Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mqx78xd8nU8&feature=related

"As we trust God to give us wisdom for today's decisions, He will lead us a step at a time into what He wants us to be doing in the future." (Theodore Epp)

Magnificent

2009-09-06T08:14:00.002+08:00

I woke up this morning with this song playing in my heart. Praise the name of our Lord, sweet Jesus!

Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed the raging seas
That came crashing over me

Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light
The hope of all the earth
Is rest assured in Your great love

You are magnificent
Eternally wonderful, glorious
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus

When the evening fades
You call forth songs of joy
As the morning wakes
We Your children give You praise.

You are magnificent
Eternally wonderful, glorious
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus
No one ever will compare
To You, Jesus

Psalm 28:7 :The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song."

Nerissa & Wei Leong's Visit to Brunei

2009-09-06T00:01:00.008+08:00

Lets see, it's been more than a month since I last updated my blog. I do apologise for the laziness and do thank you all for your patience. Hehehe

I've been wanting to write something down here, thinking through about what I should write about. Many thoughts and songs I'd like to share with all of you, but I can't form a structure in my head on how to organise my writing YET.

To be honest, past few weeks, my head has been really jumbled up. I've been missing a lot of turns while driving, making nonsense mistakes at work and friends have been coming to me to say, 'Hey YS, you're mind is somewhere else!' Hahaha...Indeed. I've been trying very hard not to be living in dreamland.

So anyway, firstly, wanna talk about Nerissa's trip to Brunei. Nerissa was the FIRST person from SR to come and visit me in Brunei. One of the main highlights of her trip was where we left the hustle and bustle of the city and went into the deep jungles of Temburong using a speed boat, pass the amazon forest, south china sea and there we hiked into the jungle and learnt much about jungle survival and also, floating down the river. Not to mention, we also saw a rattle snake, where one of our female tour guide freaked out and jumped on another male tour guide who was behind her, and both of them crumbled to the ground! I had a laugh of my life!

The week following that, Wei Leong came to visit. Oh, we had such a good time together and I just wished that he could stay for longer. Wei Leong stayed with Gee Eng and met most of my friends from care group and also my godparents. Everyone find him a really nice person and I'm really thankful to the Lord for that. On Saturday, we had barbeque at Muara beach with the others. The main highlight of that activity was our failed attempt to start the fire for bbq as the wind was quite strong. I almost thought that we will end up having no bbq, but thank God, it finally worked. Thanks to Andy, Chee Git and perhaps some other people.

Sunday was quite relaxed, with activities mainly focussing on church stuffs and people. Ah..I thought the sermon by Pastor Tony on Guidance was a good reminder for myself, and all the while, the verses which pastor spoke on were all reminders for me. The main thing I took away from the sermon was that God's WILL will happen in a STEP-BY-STEP manner and I am reminded once again to WAIT.

On Monday, Wei Leong and I had some time alone to ourselves. I brought him first to Tasek Lama Recreational Park for a stroll, then headed off to the famous Venice of the East (Kampong Ayer), where I was born. Heehee..It wasn't exacly like Venice coz there were lots of rubbish floating in the river! Anyway, we took the boat to the newly opened Tourist Exhibition Centre and then, we went to one of the kampong to take a walk from one end to the other. It was really nice, because the people in the village were really friendly and greeted us.

Hahaha..I have to be honest, I didn't want the day to end coz Wei Leong was going to be flying off that night. It was really nice to have him around, great company and we exchanged many stories with each other. I couldn't control my tears while I drove him to the airport. When I arrived at the airport, I prayed that God will quickly help me find a suitable parking, coz I didn't want to be in a hassle to find one, as I was already crying, and God DID help me find a perfect spot, right in front of the airport! Hehehe...Then, what happens is...secret! :D I know Wei Leong was trying to cheer me up by talking about stuffs like pepsi twist, so that was good.

Hehehe...I think I should end here. Though, I could go on and on and on and on. Lastly, all good things comes from the Lord and Praise His Holy Name!

Have a good day ahead my dear friends!

God's Tremendous Blessings!

2009-08-01T14:46:00.001+08:00

Dear friends,

Once again, I want to praise God for His tremendous goodness and providence in my life, and those around me.

Yesterday, I received a text from godma that her company encountered an accident, such that the refrigerator compressor exploded while her men were fixing it for a newly open supermarket, and the metal pieces flew to 300m away and hit two cars. There were two old people sitting at the back seat, but thank God, the metal piece only broke the back window and no body was hurt. Although, this involved a police case, I really thank God for His protection for godma, godpa and the whole company.

I've also been really busy at work lately, where I'm responsible for evaluating the tender items, and there are about 40 over items to analyse. Phew....Thank God, I still have msn and music where I can relax and destress myself a bit while working.

It's also been a tremendous blessing being able to work with the youth. Over the past two weeks, I've been meeting up with them, and fetching them for dance practices. It's great to get to know some of them personally, eventhough, sometimes, I get so mixed up with all the names! So, Ella likes to eat spagetti and has a big appetite, Maan can dance really well but she doesn't eat vegetables, Iman loves reading, and I got to know some1 who likes to eat corn beef rice. Hehehe...So, the dance practice is going well. We've got a total of 12 girls dancing including myself, and we'll be performing it next sunday. I've also bought the cloths, which the girls have chosen for (yellow, red and purple) and will be sending them for tailor made later in the day. Praise God for this opportunity to be able to serve Him in this manner.

Seekers group is going to have our 2nd session this Sunday, and it's also been a tremendous blessing to be involved in the seekers life, and a great exposure to what seekers are thinking and the questions that they will ask. It's been a great challenge and we don't necessary have all the answers, but it's definitely a good exposure for myself.

Lastly, leaving you with a verse...

"But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first all pure, then peace loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere" James 3:17 NIV

Trust that you are all well in the Lord ever rejoicing in His goodness and faithfulness.

Let Him Who Boasts, Boast In the Lord!

2009-07-23T08:19:00.006+08:00

Dear all,

Past two weeks has been quite a hectic one, where one of the main highlights was bringing a friend's husband Mr. M to accept the Lord. It was quite an unexpected one also. But all in all, God has really doing things in my life, not only to encourage me and spur me on but also to bless others.

This coming Sunday, the first seeker's class will start, where KY, myself and CG will be leading it. So far, we've got about 3 seekers, namely : WI, M, K and 3 new believers: E, M, N. I am looking forward to greater things God can do in their lives, in His time.

Youth Sunday is also coming up in about 2 weeks time (9th August), and I'll be organising a dance. This Friday, Lovel will come and teach the young ladies a dance to YF theme song, In Christ Alone. Besides that, I'm also hoping to be able to get the young men to sing to the 2nd chorus of the song, while the ladies are dancing, so our first practice will be this Sunday after church. It is only my prayers that through it all, God will be glorified and Jesus name will be highlighted during the performance! Amen.

Something else I'm looking forward to is that I will be expecting two special visitors who will visit me by the end of next month. Yes, it's unbelievable but true. Nerissa has got her visa sorted and she will be coming from Taiwan for about 5 days. I'll be brining Nerissa around Brunei, showing her all the local delicacies and she'll be staying with me in my home. Besides that, Wei Leong also plans to come over end of August, so it'll be really a great time to catch up with him and for him to get to know my friends here, but we still have to wait for his passport to be renewed first. So, praying that everything will go smoothly for them.

Workwise, I'm so thankful that the Lord has provided me with this job. It can get busy or stressful at times, and during these times, I don't really know how to thank the Lord for it, but at the end of the day, I'm always every so grateful that I have a paid job. Money is very important as well, I realised, if I need to continue to reach out to the lost for example, in buying my mobile credits, in buying people lunch or paying for my own lunch when I meet up with them, or buying my car fuel to fetch people to church or meetings. Perhaps, in the near future, I would also need money to go on a mission trip, so yea, money is important. I used to think otherwise :P

All in all, that's about most of the highlights of my past 2 weeks or so. Continue to be expectant of the Lord that He will do great things in your life, and through your life, such that you will be His salt and light of the world i.e. giving taste to the world and brining hope to the world. Continue to walk close to Jesus.

Lastly, May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

In His Wonderful Grace,

Yan Shiang

Busy But Incredibly Blessed!

2009-07-09T11:02:00.004+08:00

There are so many times this week that I felt I had so much to do in my work, friendships and ministry that I really felt so overwhelmed. But instantly, I was reminded to NOT do all these things with my own wisdom or strength, and to remember that it is only God who can build the house or else, I'll be working in vain. I thank God for each time, I felt helpless, He renews my strength.

I do want to praise God for allowing me to serve Him during this time that I am single, thus I am able to focus on serving Him and Him alone, while waiting for Him to reveal more of His plans and will in my life. I am reminded not to 'jump-the-gun' and be patient especially in the area of revealing who I should spend the rest of my life with. It is indeed not easy, but God has been gracious in opening doors for me to serve in His house thus, I am not constantly thinking about this issue, but just trusting in His mighty plans.

Currently, with mom away, I am having to look after all matters of the house, including bills, doing my own laundry, keeping the house clean, keeping the car clean and running, attending to the garden and my meals. It is indeed a learning curve for me and I do want to praise God for this opportunity, though I do wish my mother will come back soon so that I can relax a bit. On top of that, I'm still quite involved with ministry and shepherding over some people. Praise God for the youths and as we plan for a revival in their worship session. Praise God also for the opportunity for my church to start a seeker's group on Sundays which I will also be involved in. It's a great joy to be able to serve the Lord and His people.

This is my prayer and will be my motto of the month, from Psalm 27:4

One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.

To all of you out there, whom I've chatted with or received prayer requests from, be assured that I have prayed for you at least once. I do hope that the Lord will guide you according to His will as you continue to seek Him in your life.

Have a great day my dear friends!

The Youth Camp - Come Thirsty

2009-06-27T12:01:00.003+08:00

Praise the Lord for the youths in my church, and Praise the Lord for giving me an opportunity to play a little part in their lives. I'm indeed very thankful to God for giving me the opportunity for being able to help out for the Youth Camp this year.

For 2 nights in a row, youths have come to us to have sessions of counselling, advice and prayers and, I, myself, for the first time, prayed for youths and saw them crying before God. I really do not know how that happened but as I prayed for them, the Holy Spirit must have been working in their hearts to convict them of certain issues from anger, loneliness, gossipping, quiet time, laziness to, other issues such as self-injury, lust, peer pressure, adultery etc etd. I come to realise that it is so challenging to be a youth today, in this society, where we tend to want to be popular and follow the latest trend. I am certainly thankful that God can use me, and also 3 other youth helpers to pray for the 40+ youths. Tho, it was really tiring and I AM really tired today, but I am incredibly blessed by being able to serve the youths in this way. I do not have all the answers to their problems, but I do have the bible which contains verses that can guide them in these areas.

For myself, this is just a training ground for me. I know God will expand my territory and He will have greater things for me. Exodus 32:24: I will drive out nations before you and enlarge your territory, and no one will covet your land when you go up three times each year to appear before the LORD your God.

May the Lord be honoured & glorified through it all.

Revival!

2009-06-06T11:32:00.004+08:00

GE will be leading a Revival Worship this Sunday and I'll be back-up singing. He's been asking people to join him in prayers every morning at 5am for the Revival. I feel excited to be part of this 'spark of revival' in our church, but I also fear of oppositions and some people might get offended by the things he say. But I trust that the Lord will be able to protect the righteous and may every word that GE speaks, it's from the Lord.

So, as part of the 'REVIVAL' package, I've been waking up early mornings around 4am to pray and read my bible. The Lord has lead me to read and learn from the book of Ezra. It has only been my 3rd day. I have not actually found it hard to wake up (No, I don't use alarm clock), but the hard thing is to actually keep awake and find it exciting to read God's words. Somehow, the tiredness and sleepiness sets in after about 10 mins of praying or reading. Like it says in the bible, the spirit is willing but the body is weak. It is my hearts desire to be set ablaze, burning with passion in my heart while I am reading God's words. I don't want to be lukewarm.

Anyway, last night we had fun. My mom and I cooked some dishes and invited some people from care group over for dinner. I made Teriyaki chicken (taught my Lena), Hungarian Goulash (taught my Lynn), fried drumsticks, ordered a butter prawn, fried vegies and made claypot tofu. All were good. We had Andy, AT, G&A and WS over. After dinner, Andy showed us pictures of our Temburong trip and we sang karaoke. Then, we also sang some hillsongs and had a great time of worship. As desserts, we had banana+white chocolate muffins. Yummmyy....I should do more baking. Anyway, our guests left at around 11.30pm...Phew...I was really tired! But Joyful!

As for ministry, I'll be more involved with Youth Fellowship. Has just been approached by Koo Lee about serving in the Praise and Worship Ministry in YF, to work along another girl to watch over the music part of YF. I'm excited but also, a little nervous. But I pray God will give me the wisdom and the right heart. It is my desire (and hopefully God's as well) to be able to train up the youths to serve in the sunday service as well. Lets expect BIGGER things from God and have HIGHER aims!

Work is rolling and I'm thankful for where He has placed me and called me to be. I need to learn each day to count my blessings. One thing I really miss though, are friends from UK and fellowshipping with them. I will always miss that.

To God Be the Glory. Have a GREAT day ahead.

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet

2009-06-02T09:39:00.002+08:00

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path
Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path

When I feel afraid
Think I've lost my way
Still You're there right beside me

And nothing will I fear
As long as You are near
Please be near me to the end

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path

Now I will not forget Your love for me and yet
My heart forever is wandering

Please be my guide and hold me to Your side
And I will love You to the end

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet
And a light unto my path

You Tube Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2SLHWFpSlq4&feature=related

Hearing God's Voice When He Speaks

2009-05-30T10:33:00.005+08:00

Currently, this is a challenge for me and perhaps to many ladies out there:
Learn to guard your heart and leave the key in Christ hands.

I had a great chat this morning with a dear sister in UK and amongst the many topics we were discussing, "Hearing God's Voice" was one of them. It's interesting that God speaks a WHOLE lot to some people during their quiet time, and when they tell it to other people, you can actually see the EXCITEMENT and SPARKLE in their eyes. And there is a sense of peace and confidence. I used to get them sometimes but not very often these days. However, I believe we should all EXPECT God to be always ready to speak. It just takes a while to tune our heart and ears to hear HIS voice.

There is great power when God speaks to you, even just ONE WORD, though sentences are usually more helpful. It may not be that audible voice but it is that STILL SMALL voice...OR it may be an understanding God has revealed to you, so clear that it becomes a knowledge which comes out in the form of sentences when you explain it to other people. At times, HIS presence alone is more than enough.

I wonder what are your thoughts on this?

May we all learn to be more sensitive to His voice that He may lead and guide us in all wisdom.

For the sake of His glory,

Yan Shiang

There is no victory without battles

2009-05-28T11:57:00.000+08:00

"Realistically I realised that I must not only share all my blessings but also all my struggles, battles and heartaches. It is only because of the struggles, battles and heartaches that we can experience the victory." - Kenny Gan

God Bless You!

2009-05-28T09:33:00.002+08:00

I'm so encouraged this morning to receive a call from my care group leader. We had a chat for a while and he asked me if I am keeping up with my quiet time. It's really good that he's been a good example as a leader. He tells me that he make sure that he has his quiet time with God every morning at 7am and then prayer before he leaves for work. He said that our daily lives are bombarded daily with all sorts of things, problems, sins and evil, and we need the Lord daily to be able to go through the day, which is so true. Sometimes, we give ourselves excuse to not do our quiet time or maybe we're lazy or too tired. We shouldn't give ourselves excuses if we are to grow in self-discipline (as our church theme this year).

Anyway, I've been reading some books talking about discipline. God has graciously opened my eyes to many areas of my life (in regards to discipline) which needs His touch of hand in it and I've also been challenged by many God fearing people's life, where discipline has shine through their lives. In the midst of life storms and hails, is your heart disciplined enough to trust in Him and not be shaken? Does life circumstances change the way you view who God is and what He can do?

Blessed is that man that maketh the LORD his trust, and
respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. Psalm 40:4

Giving God the Credit

2009-05-16T13:57:00.003+08:00

I was just thinking to myself, how many times do I REALLY give God the credit when He answers my prayers the way I want it. Or if I haven't really prayed for something, but God knows what is in my heart, and when my desires come true, am I too occupied with my happiness and joy that I forget to give God the credit or I just think to myself, "Maybe it's just a coincidence.".

Many times, we take God for granted and when things come naturally without much effort in praying about it, we tend to gear towards the thought that, "OH well, it may just be a coincidence". But we have to always remember that nothing in this world happens without the Lord ALLOWING it (I think this also applies to dreams as well). Our God of the Universe, controls the whole universe basically. He's all knowing and He is Mighty. So, next time, if God gives you the desires of your heart, make sure that you don't brush away it away too quickly or just 'superficially' give thanks to God, but actually, this should trigger what I think is 'REVERENCE FEAR'. Wow, God does really knows our hearts desires, even when we don't pray much about it. We, Christians, are not even 1 millimeter at the mercy of chance, fate or coincidence because our whole life is in God's hands.

So, I have another thought today besides giving God the credit for all things to arrive safely from UK to Brunei, which took a good 5 months. Yes, it was suppose to take only 2 months but really, God has His reasons for the time taken, and it was actually for my benefit, which I found out later. Yeah, so the other thought was about myself, my own character and personality.

These days, work load is building up and responsibility at work, at home, at church and between friends are also building up and getting complicated. So, I was just wondering to myself, if these things will change my character. Taking time out for friends and being available for them, being concerned and asking for prayers is something which I find, not very difficult to do. Partly, God made me this way, but also, I was called to do this. But, as the business of this world comes along my way, I have to be honest, sometimes, it's a struggle for me to stop everything else that I'm doing and really just care for a person whom the Lord has allowed to share with me some of his or her problems. I really don't want to take things lightly as there is a temptation that I may, but really to re-invest my time and energy in people's lives again despite the many things and responsibilities I have. And to remember that nothing is too big for the Lord to handle, through me, if it is His will.

A few days ago, I've been SUPERPOKED by the holy spirit regarding friends whom God has put along my path while in the UK. People that He has called me to approach and care for, to show is Love to, some whom which have come to Christ, others whom I have had conversations with or even lived with. All these people have evidently seen my life and my love for God, but how can I disappoint them by losing touch. Didn't God, who start a good work in my life, will carry it on to completion till the day of Christ Jesus. If God has put these precious souls in my life, was it just for that period of time? The answer is 'NO'. The world loves people temporarily, but Christ loves EVERLASTINGLY. So, we should be examples of Christ to love others just the way Christ loves us. Unconditionally, self-sacrificially and without expecting anything back.

It Only Takes A Spark

2009-05-06T08:35:00.005+08:00

Verse 1
It only takes a spark, to get a fire going.
And soon all those around, can warm up it it's glowing.

Chorus:
That's how it is with God's love, once you've experienced it, it's fresh like spring, you want to sing, you want to pass it on.

Verse 2
What a wondrous time is Spring
When all the trees are budding.
The birds begin to sing,
the flowers start their blooming.

Chorus:
That's how it is with God's love, once you've experienced it, it's fresh like spring, you want to sing, you want to pass it on.

Verse 3
I wish for you my friend
this happiness that I've found
You can depend on him
It matters not where your bound.

Last chorus:
I'll shout it from the mountain tops
I want the world to know
The Lord of Life has come to me
I want to pass it on.

Indeed, it only takes a spark to get a fire going. Similarly, it takes a spark to get others to be EXCITED about Jesus Christ. We should all be the SPARKS of God's love, but sadly, sometimes, we are so burdened by other things like work, relationships, and any other things to do except being a channel of God's love to others. Once, we may be passionately in love with God, but now, clogged by all troubles and worries, are we loosing that passion?

Honestly, in my country, people say it's a good place for retirement. Everything is slower paced than most of other countries, and people live a generally better and more luxurious life. But this is a danger ground for Christians. It creates an environment where we can easily fall into comfort, being satisfied with our Christian life and make ourself feel or think that we're doing fine as a christian. But in fact, there is actually SO MUCH MORE that we can do for the expansion of God's kingdom, interms of going OUT of our comfort zone to ministry to others, sacrificing our time and being available to others. Are we doing that at a regular basis? Or are we faced with our OWN problems daily, which we can't even submit to God? If we can't help ourselves, how can we help others?

Indeed, since a few years back, God has put 'missions' in my heart. But God has been really gracious in teaching me about this. I was reading one of Joyce Meyer's daily devotion, and it challenges me. God was asking me, "Yan Shiang, if I take 'missions' away from you, tell you that it is not your cup-of-tea, will you still love me?". If God takes away the ministry that I always wanted to serve Him at, will I still love Him? Of course, the answer has to be "Yes, Lord, I will still love You."

God knows our heart. Are the things that we are doing motivated by a heart love for God? Or are we just practicing rules taught by men? Are we just going through the motions, doing things respected by men? One of the saddest themes in the bible is how often the passing of faithfulness from one generation to another fails. It happens in the promised land with the power of God where Joshua leads them, and the next generation is running after idols. They lack genuine conviction of what they were doing. Just becoz ur surrounded by people who has conviction doesn't mean that you have conviction. It's possible to know all the rules but not really knowing God.

I am grateful that God is challenging me and correcting me daily. I see now that God was rescuing me from the effects of sin. There was a point where that same authority, help and correction was annoying to me becoz all I could see was what it was keeping me from. It is possible to grow up with the restrictions that comes with the righteousness but never learn to appreciate the beauty and the goodness of righteousness. Is that where you are in life? Are you just aware of the restrictions that comes with the righteousness or do you see the beauty of obeying God's ways, walking with Him and would you want it if no one was telling you to do it?

Welcome to the REAL world!

2009-04-20T14:05:00.007+08:00

I'm really ashamed to say this but I'm still at a state of 'shock' at myself, not being able to accept the FACT that I'm a working adult, and yes, I have to work everyday, for (maybe) the rest of my 20-30 YEARS or at least for the next 5 years and YES, I have to wear work clothes everyday instead of jeans or shorts and t-shirt! I am still having to digest this FACT daily.

Well, I used to dream and dream so much that I'll be able to go to work, wear nice office clothes/suites, look smart and professional instead of being JUST a student! To be able to go to work is like a motivation in my life (well, perhaps when I was a student, my next motivation in life was to be able to get a job and work), and God has granted me that. But right now, it gotta be INGRAINED in me! It's such a difficult thing to do, I must say! I'm slowww....

Well, I guess one of the MAIN things which is making it so difficult is that at work, I have to learn to cope with stress and relationships with people. All kinds of people with different characters, and sometimes, when I'm stressed, I can get quite sensitive, and people's words may hurt or disappoint me. It just makes me fustrates more when I can't handle the situation with God's love and once again, I have to re-learn lessons after lessons about being patient, slow to anger and a lot of humility. I guess the friends now at work is quite different from friends in Uni, everyone has different motives for the things that they're doing, and sometimes, people can try and bully. Well, I got an advice :- Just ignore it or just shove it off.

Excitement of being a working person has gone, though I have to Praise God, sometimes, EXCITEMENT still comes, but it's only by the GRACE of God that can sustains it. I pray that God will properly INGRAIN it (as in, being a responsible working adult) in me, such that, it'll be a NORMAL thing for me soon.

Praise God, my life has been through some kind of relationship/friendship trials, but I'm in the process of learning how to deal with it in God's way and not my way. Please do pray for me, that I'll be able to be confirmed as a monthly paid employee soon!

Other than that, everything else is great! Work can get a lil discouraging sometimes, but by God's grace, I'm still alive and well. Oh, that reminds me of a song, which I've been singing repeatedly over and over again these days.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dooif2-yAoI

I’m forgiven because You were forsaken
I’m accepted, You were condemned
I’m alive and well, Your Spirit lives within me
Because You died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love, I know it’s true
It’s my joy to honor You
In all I do, I honor You

God is Great! He is Amazing! He is worthy of ALL our Praises! Amen!

Philippians 4:4-7

2009-04-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Deeper In Love

2009-04-13T08:42:00.005+08:00

I just love this song. It helps me proclaim my love for Jesus, each time. It's indeed a VICTORIOUS song!

There is a longing only You can fill
A raging temptest only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord
To know You as I'm known
Drink from the river
That flows before your throne

Take me deeper
Deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love You more and more
How I long to be deeper in love

Sunrise to sunrise
I will seek Your face
Drawn by the Spirit
To the promise of Your grace
My heart has found in You
A hope that will abide
Here in Your presence
Forever satisfied

Yesterday was Easter Sunday, and being awaere of Jesus Rising from the dead 2000 years ago (and it says in the bible, while it was dark and durin early hours of the morning) was just overwhelming. On Saturday night, before I went to bed, I'm already all excited. A few songs kept playing in my head e.g. "Up from the grave He arose", "Jesus is Alive", "He is Risen" and it just kept playing over and over until I fell asleep. I remembered, waking in the middle of the night, and the words kept repeating again in my head! Anyway, I woke up at 7am on Easter Sunday! Heehee...Partly coz we had guests in the house so had to wake up early, another reason also being, I had to attend the MOH Badminton Competition opening ceremony at 8am. The first thing I did was to send a few text to a few friends to share my joy of this day, that Jesus is Alive. I sent to 3 friends in Brunei and 1 friend in M'sia and it reads "Up from the grave He arose! Jesus is Alive!"

Hmm...I was quite disappointed that I didn't get replies straight away, showing that my friends are still asleep during Easter Sunday. Yes, once during our Easter retreat in UK, the speaker made us wake up really early during Easter Sunday to do our morning devotions, but we were all so sluggish at rising. He challenged us by saying "Jesus rose from the dead and you can't even get out of bed!" Heehee...Later in the morning did I receive 2 texts back and that was REAL encouraging! I wondered if I was the only excited kid around!

Anyway, Easter Sunday service was great with an invited speaker from OM, Sabah to share with us about why we should do Missions, linking it back to the message of the cross. I think a few people accepted Christ during the service. The night before, in YF, it was an Evangelistic Night and I was told around 10+ students accepted Christ. Praise the Lord indeed!

Certain things are in my mind currently, which I'm yet to have an answer, but certain things are becoming clearer in my life and certain puzzles are patching up. Yes, just like to fix a 1000 piece puzzle set, it's going to take a lot of time, patience and trust in the Almighty Father and humility too! I am reminded to be STILL and Patient, to let GOD do the unfolding.

Happy Easter, Everybody~!

2009-04-09T14:42:00.002+08:00

Happy Easter Day Everybody!!!

Can I ask a question? Why is Easter Day represented by an egg?

A wise person once said, "Old age tends to make one reflective". I'm going to be reflective again now.....thinking back through the years....hmmm...

Actually, it was during easter time 3 years ago (that is back in 2006), that I started my personal walk with Jesus and that was when God revealed to me as a Heavenly Father. It was through a retreat I went to called MEC. Now the distant past enjoys renewed vibrancy in my recall, eventho it can be reviewed from the prespective of just 3 years, but countless people have touched my life since that day and God Himself has taught me though such valuable lessons in my life, so valuable and so precious that it's worth more than gold or silver. So Praise the Lord for that.

So, for the past 3 years, is just a 'warm-up' for me in my walk with the Lord but at those times, I may have felt overwhelmed by all that life challenges has thrown at me. In my life, the day will come when maybe like Jeremiah, more challenges in life is yet to come, but God's grace is going to sustain me and my current moment of trials and oppositions is just part of God's preparation for me, so I shall not grow weary in it but believe that God is going to meet me right where I am, and strengthen me and sustain me to the end.

Nightmares galore!

2009-04-06T08:12:00.002+08:00

Hmm...these couple of days, I've not been getting good sleep. I've been having all kinds of weird dreams and also nightmares. Is it because there is too many things on my mind or I've got to many things to do?? Hmmm....so, this is what I am usually doing besides working everyday.

Mondays: Free in the evenings (shop with mom??)
Tuesdays: Squash then dinner out
Wednesday: Music Practice
Thursday: Care Group
Fridays: (Going to start learning paino to play in YF)
Saturdays: Youth Fellowship
Sundays: Music Practice + Church Service then dinner out

Then, there are two people whom I'm keeping up with namely AT and WI. AT is a christian but WI is a seeker. Last Thursday, I brought WI to join my caregroup and she seems to enjoy the fellowship, but I'm still praying for her and for myself for guidance on how to speak.

I really pray that our church will be able to start some kind of 'Christianity Explored' sessions with seekers or new believers. Oh yes, Praise the Lord, 11 people were baptized last weekend!

Work is piling up at my workplace. May the Lord continue to give me strength and endurance!

Picture with Tony Anthony

2009-03-28T14:11:00.001+08:00

Left: Ai Ting, Tony, Me

Praise the Lord, his testimony has allowed God to use him to bring many to Christ.

Secure in the Everlasting Arms

2009-03-26T14:45:00.004+08:00

Psalm 73, " I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desiere besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

I've currently dived into another book - Secure in the Everlasting Arms by Elisabeth Elliot. She's such an inspirational woman, set apart by the Spirit of God. One thing I learnt from her is that she FULLY trusted the Lord, despite any obstacles that she has been through. But even at her level, she is still saying, "God I have spent the most fruitful time sitting at the feet of the Lord Jesus, listening, reading, pouring out my heart, thinking and learning. Perhaps because I am a slow student, God has had to teach me the same lessons many times. Of course, such frequent review have enabled me to write and speak better about some of the things I have learned, which I hope will benefit my readers and listeners." All that she's been through, she still glorifies God in the midst of her suffering and even turned all her difficulties in life to be of lessons for herself, which will enable her to glorify God. This bring to rememberance a verse, Romans 8:28 (NIV) And we know that in all things God works for the GOOD of those who LOVE him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Praise God, a lot of people gave their life to Jesus two nights ago at Tony Anthony's evangelistic talk. I think there were about 30-40 people who put up their hands and went up. I'm not sure how many more last night, but it was indeed really encouraging.

The Spirit Song

2009-03-26T14:29:00.004+08:00

A song which we will be singing this Sunday...

O let the Son of God enfold you
With His Spirit and His love
Let Him fill your heart and satisfy your soul

O let Him have the things that hold you
And His Spirit like a dove
Will descend upon your life and make you whole

Jesus, O Jesus
Come and fill Your lambs
Jesus, O Jesus
Come and fill Your lambs

O come and sing this song with gladness
As your hearts are filled with joy
Lift your hands in sweet surrender to His name

O give Him all your tears and sadness
Give Him all your years of pain
And you'll enter into life in Jesus' name

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This Sunday will be my 4th week serving in the worship team for Sunday congregation as a back-up singer. Praise the Lord, each time I sing for Him, He brings me a renewed Spirit and joy. I am blessed to be able to work in a dynamic worship team and through that, I get to know the worship leaders, pianist, keyboard'ist, guitarist, drummist and the other back-up singer. It is a joy and priviledge for me to be able to serve the Lord in this way. I also enjoy the practise sessions on Wednesday nights, and they're never like a burden to me.

What saddens me is the number of people who are serving the Lord in the worship team. It is a small number, considering, my church has quite a big population of maybe (150 - 200 people). I am praying that God will allow more people who are will open up their hearts and willing to serve the Lord in the church.

Besides that, I also noticed that the church has perhaps (at least 1 whom I know), I seeker. I am also praying that the church will have kind of a "Christianity Explored" class just like in Cornerstone Church or maybe a "seekers group" just like in Solid Rock.

Mom's been in Miri for the past 2 weeks, so I've been living alone. Tho, some days, I'll go to Geri's and sleep over. She's been a really good sister to me, caring and keeping me comfortable. Last night, I also slept over at hers, and this morning, before leaving for work, she handed me my 'packed breakfast' which are all ready and done, placed inside a paper bag (just like the americans!). I've always wanted that! Hehe...

So, tonight, is the night I've been waiting for. I don't seem to be very excited anymore compare to the first time I heard about him coming. Yes, Tony Anthony, the 3x World Kung Fu Champion is coming to give his testimony!! Can't belive this! I was just reading his book last month, and I did secretly wished that I could see this guy! I never would've thought he'll come!

I know of a few non-christians (some my friends), who will be going. I'm really excited for that, and am praying that the Lord will prepare their hearts before the talk tonight, which is at 8pm.

Lastly, an interesting link for those of you who can read chinese. It's about how the Chinese Lanugage and the Bible links together.
http://students.washington.edu/cbsf/cool/Chinese.swf

That's all for now.

Salary Sorted!

2009-03-24T14:55:00.003+08:00

Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! I got my back-dated salary today! Heeheehee...Oh....Lord, how can I say thanks for all that you've done for me? I've waited long, long, long...maybe not so long (nearly 8 months) for my salary?!! Phewwww......And at each step, trusting the Lord for His ways. This reminds me of the verse that has been popping up in my head ever so regularly these days.

"Your word is a lamp to guide me and a light for my path". God spoke to me through the verse, where I am instructed to trust the Lord in every step that I take everyday through His WORD. Just like a fire, burning on a pole, which was used to light the way for people in the old days, the fire, like a lamp, guides the people's path and the light shows just enough for the next step ahead. Thus, God's word doesn't show us what is going to happen in the future, who we are going to marry, where we will end up in or how long we're going to live, but God's words is to help us and guide us to take one step at a time each day.

Another thing I want to thank God for is the ministry He has put me in right now. So unique, seems so small, but I trust that, God can definitely use the every little that I have to train up more disciples of Christ. Currently, I have 3 important ministries. Firstly, is with the youth fellowship, secondly is with the worship team and thridly, individual adult counselling. The 3rd one is the most nerve wrecking and seriously, it has been a joy to be able to walk into a person's life and be able to pray for and with them. I say it's nerve wrecking coz these individuals are actually much older than me, but somehow, they have lost direction in their lives. It is my prayers that these individuals can be properly trained in the knowledge of the Lord, thus being independent, such that, in due time, they can train and encourage others as well to be followers/disciples of Christ. And it is only my joy that God can use me in this way to be a friend and an example to them.

It's really funny, coz I think to the eyes of people (christians and non-christians alike), I'm quite innocent and perhaps a lovely person? Thus, it is not very difficult for them to open up to me, and share with me about their concerns and struggles. It is also a gift from God that He has made me this way, and others see me as 'harmless'. So, they trust me. It is also my prayers that the Lord can use me to be able to speak to these people about Jesus Christ and that I shall never misuse this gift for any bad purposes! Oh, Lord have mercy on me for this revelation.

Finally, finally...If you guys are still reading my blog, I pray that it will continue to serve it's original purpose - Which is to Glorify God and as a source of encouragment to you all. If by any reason, the blog is not serving it's purpose, please let me know and I'll shut it down straight away :P Heehee!

Have a blessed week ahead!

Be Joyful in God my Saviour

2009-03-23T09:51:00.003+08:00

Though the fig tree does not bud

and there are no grapes on the vines,

though the olive crop fails

and the fields produce no food,

though there are no sheep in the pen

and no cattle in the stalls

yet I will rejoice in the LORD,

I will be joyful in God my Saviour.

Habakkuk 3:17-18

Olivia and Chin Wei Finally Meets!

2009-02-21T13:58:00.004+08:00

Finally! The two little rascals, Olivia Chan who is 2 yrs old and Chin Wei who is going to be 2 as well next Monday, met each other! Olivia who flew all the way from UK to come to see her little cousin Chin Wei!

A few conclusions:

1. Olivia is taller than Chin Wei eventhough they're only 1 month apart.

2. Olivia can say more words and in longer sentences than CW

3. Olivia is more shy than CW. As CW tries to kiss or hug her (as supported by the family), Olivia just stay still or shys away.

4. Olivia wants to hold hands with CW to go to the shops (imaginary) but CW doesn't like it.

5. The two little rascals actually gets along with each other very well and even attempted feeding each other and was running around in circles chasing one another.

6. CW cries when she has to be put to bed and Olivia isn't around.

7. Olivia attempted to try and make CW laugh when he cries, but laughing out loud in front of him.

Some Pharmacy Jokes

2009-02-18T15:39:00.002+08:00

A man goes into a drugstore and asks the pharmacists if he can give him something for the hiccups. The pharmacist promptly reaches out and slaps the man's face.

"What did you do that for?" the man asks.
"Well, you don't have the hiccups anymore, do you?"
The man says, "No, but my wife out in the car still does!"
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A pharmacists is going over the directions on a prescription bottle with an elderly patient. "Be sure not to take this more often than every 4 hours," the pharmacist says. "Don't worry," replies the patient. "It takes me 4 hours to get the lid off."
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A chemist walks into a drug store and asks the pharmacists, "Do you have any acetylsalicylic acid?" "You mean aspirin?" asked the pharmacists. "That's it, I can never remember that word."
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Pharmacists: I have some bad news and some very bad news.
Patient: Well, might as well give me the bad news first.
Pharmacist: The lab called with your test results. They said you have 24 hours to live.
Patient: 24 HOURS! That's terrible!! What could be WORSE? What's the very bad news?
Pharmacists: I've been trying to reach you since yesterday.
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And some of my real life experience Pharmacy Jokes....

But before that, find out what Witch Hazel actually is first for those who doesn't work in the medical field.

https://www.yourhealthfoodstore.co.uk/details.php/p1082_witch_doctor_gel_witch_hazel_skin_treatment_gel.html

Scene 1: A young lady just started her first day of work as a healthcare assistant in a local Pharmacy shop in UK. Throughout the day, many old folkes came in with their prescriptions and some came in to COLLECT their medication. However, before the young lady gives the patients their medicine, she'll always have to ask for their name. Unfortunately, this young lady isn't used to the British accent and she has to always ask the patients to repeat their name and even sometimes, to ask them to write it down on a piece of paper.

So one fine day, sometime during her first week of working in the pharmacy, an elderly woman came in and asked for 'Witch Hazel'. So, this young laday went to look through the boxes of prepared medication under the surname 'Hazel', but no matter how hard she looked, or where she looked, there was no one with the surname 'Hazel'. Finally, she went to her boss and said, "Mr Bi, I can't find the person's medication". Mr. Bi, who is already very farmiliar with his customoers asked, "What is the patient's name?"..and the young laday went "Witch Hazel"...and when Mr Bi and all the other staffs heard it, they all broke into a big laugh!
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I have another pharmacy joke, also real life! But will only tell you guys about it in my next post!

Happy Valentine's Day

2009-02-14T09:58:00.006+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day everybody! Thank you very much for keeping up with my blog.

Valentines Day is a good time to remember God's love for us, and He should be our ultimate lover. During my school days, I always wish that I'll receive some flowers and I always wonder when I'll get my first valentines day card or flowers. Tho, I still secretly wish for that now, but it's not that important anymore and I dont get too disappointed when I dont receive them. It's coz I already understand God's love for me which is more than enough.

I've been ok, my relationship with mom, thankfully has been patched up again. She scolded me the other day and I promised that I wont make her angry again. It comes down to being sensitive to her and knowing how to put her needs first before myself, tho I cannot deny, Mom has ALWAYS put my needs before herself. In terms of controlling anger and emotions, I'm also learning that slowly and being sensitive to when a volcano inside me wants to erupt, and knowing how to yield the Holy Spirit and apply God's words which are found inside my heart to soothe it down.

I am reading a book by Stormie O and reminded that even when she was busy involved in church, and she was reading hours of bible for her research and was praying for everybody, she highlited the importance of her intimate relationship with God. She neglected allowing God to speak to her personally in the midst of her business eventho she was doing things related to God. A good reminder which helps me keep my toes up.

Few things you can pray about for me.

1. My laptop is infected with a virus, thus a few of my saved files are also damaged. I really don't like dealing with these kinda things. Please pray for patience.

2. Please continue to pray for my salary and for God's hands to be on the forms, papers and letters that I've submitted for it's processing.

3. Please continue to pray for my relationship with my mother, that we will apply the fruit of the spirit in our lives towards each other.

4. Please pray for my relationship with God, that'll I'll be aware of areas of my life which I've not submitted to Him. Pray that I will be bold and trusting in allowing God to enter these areas, let him continue to poke me in new areas and that I'll have an obedient heart to listen and obey. Pray that I'll have a refreshing spirit daily to remember the love of God to me just like a father towards his daughter.

That's all for now. Thank you all again for always keeping in touch and being available.

For the expansion of God's kingdom and For His glory,

Yan Shiang

Losing a Loved One

2009-02-09T14:26:00.002+08:00

"May the Lord wrap His arms around you and comfort you in a way only He can do."

Life is full of surprises and life is indeed unexpected. God is mysterious and thus, the world and the people that He created are bound to work in mysterious ways. Death is one thing which comes unexpected to some people, but for others, it may be expected. Going through the death of a loved one is difficult, but EVEN more difficult is when death comes UNEXPECTED. What about going through the death of a close family member who is a non-believer?

My grandma in Miri passed away last Friday, 6th February 2009 at 82 years old. She has been really ill since last year christmas and was in and out of hospital several times. In the end, the doctors asked us to take her home as there is nothing they can do anymore. Thus, she was sent home without any medication or oxygen, just a feeding tube. I took two days leave and went down to see my grandma with my mom last Wednesday, and it was really hard to see her struggling to live. She was breathing really heavily through her mouth, and there was a loud cracking sound each time she took a breath. All of us just sat around her day and night, sometimes, I sang some songs to her. My deepest concern for grandma was her salvation. Though, I have tried talking to her about Lord Jesus when she was ill, I wasn't quite sure if she understood me coz I didn't speak her launguage (Hakka). During the 2 days before she died, I did try my very best to wisper in her ears that Jesus loves her and that she will be with Jeasus in heaven so she does not need to be afraid. I did asked her if she wanted to accept Jesus. She gave a sound "errrrrrr/aaaaaa". As she was breathing heavily, I can't tell if it was a reply to my question or it was just the usual breathing. At that time, I was also constanly aware of my non-believing uncles and aunties around me, who disliked the idea of Christianity and may just mocked me.

Grandma's funeral service was a Buddhist one. I said a prayer for her in my heart that the Lord Jesus would forgive her sins. During the funeral, I had to go through 3 days of intense Buddhist customs, which involved listening to a recorded chanting being played all day and night, breathing in smoke of burnt incense and we were not allowed to sit on the chair or sleep. In front of the coffin laid flowers, candles and food. I watched my 40+ cousins and 20+ uncles and aunties bowed down to the coffin each time sum1 burnt an insense and bowed to my late grandma and all day and night, they were folding some kind of yellow paper which resembles money and other cousins were burning those papers outside.

On the day of the burial, I had to wear a blue head scarf and tie a blue ribbon around my waist, then walk around the coffin many times. I wasn't very happy doing all those, but I did it for the sake of my mother who wants to honour her mother.

During those times, I was not only griefing for the loss of my grandma, but my grief ran deep and my tears flowed from a broken heart for my cousins, aunts and uncles who does not know the Lord. My cousins whom I played with all the time, did not know Jesus - the God who had made them, loves them dearly, who do not know the true meaning and purpose of life, and who are still chasing after world gains, inheritance and pleasures. I wept because I felt so helpless, too heart broken to even speak to them about the promise of everlasting life.

At the same time, I also know of another demise of WL's friend in KL two days before my grandma died. Later, I only found out that he is young - 23 yrs of age, a strong christian and he died in his sleep. He was so young, but the Lord took him away. When I read the blog created in his memory and learnt more about Marcus, I wanted to just tear myself up.

The Lord does work in mysterious ways. Indeed, He is the ONE in control, and He determines our life expectancy. It is all in His hands. But at least, rest assured, we are confident that we will see Brother Marcus in heaven again one day.

Lean and Depend on Jesus

2009-01-28T15:55:00.005+08:00

Just want to share with you all Joyce Meyer's daily devotions dated January 28 (today!) entitled "Lean and Depend on Jesus". Accompanying it, a verse from Hebrews 2:13

My trust and assured reliance and confident hope shall be fixed in Him.

Proverbs 17:1 says that a house full of sacrifices with strife is not pleasing to the Lord. In other words, we could make all kinds of sacrifices of time and effort to try to help people, yet God is not pleased unless we stay in peace. Pursuing peace means making an effort. But we cannot maintain peace simply by our own fleshly effort. We need God's help and we need grace, which is His power assisting us and enabling us to do what needs to be done.

The effort we make must be in Christ. So often we try to do what is right without asking for God's help, and that type of fleshly effort never produces good fruit. The Bible calls this a "work of the flesh". It is man's effort trying to do God's job. What I am saying is, be sure you lean on God and ask for HIS help. When you succeed, give Him the credit, the honor and the glory because success is impossible without HIM. Jesus said, "Apart from ME [cut off from vital union with ME] you can do nothing" (John 15:5)

It takes most of us a long time to believe this scripture enough to stop trying to do things without leaning on God. We try and fail, try and fail. It happens over and over untl we finally wear ourselves out and realize that God Himself is our strength, our success, and our victory. He doesn't just give us strength - He IS our Victory. Yes, we make an effort to keep peace, but we dare not make an effort without depending on God's power to flow through us - failure is certain if we do.

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I guess sometimes it is true that God has to MAKE us go through some things, so that we can realise that HE and HE alone is where the fullness of joy is. And HE alone is where our trust, assured reliance and confident hope shall be fixed on.

Alarm Clock Crazzzzz!

2009-01-27T12:01:00.002+08:00

Today I did a really really REALLY stupid thing! Mom has 2 alarm clocks, one is run by battery and the other one has a power point. Last night, I slept in mom's room as she didn't come back to Brunei with me (yep, mom's in miri). So, I wanted to make sure that I wake up in time for work his morning, so last night, I set both her alarm clocks.

This morning, the electrical alarm clock rang first and I went to switch it off. Then, IT RANG AGAIN!!! It kept rininging no matter which buttons I pressed, and kept rining even when I plug out the plug from the socket!!!! It kept ringgging and ringgging and the most annoying thing was, as I don't always sleep in mom's room and I assumed to myself that I DON'T know how to use her ADVANCE clock, even tho I unplugged the thing already, I went to my room to sleep again, but I could still hear it ringing. I was waiting for it to die..somehow (yes, with no power - dunno, sumetimes, things go on ringing without any reason coz they have some kind of energy saving thing in it, I ASSUMED), but that annyoing song!! "It's a small world after all" DIDN'T STOP! Until, I realised....I have vent my anger and fustrations on the wrong object!!! Wrong alarm clock!! Pshh!! What a mornin!!

My Tribute

2009-01-24T15:33:00.002+08:00

If you guys have been keeping up with my blog, you would've known that I've actually not got my pay yet since I started work last August. Earlier this month, I got my letter of appointment from the Ministry of Health, and they've backdated the letter to July 29th, but they told me that when I do my medical check-up, all I have to do is to find a doctor, who will backdate my medical report so that I can get paid from August.

However, things are looking bleak at the moment. Even tho, I have done all my medical test and I'm ok with my health, I have not found a doctor who is willing to back date for me yet. I spoke to one doctor just now, I was already hoping that I could get all these over and done with, but to my disappointment, he was not willing to help me out. I don't have a lot of choices of doctors now to approach, and actually, at that time, I couldn't control my tears already.

But, even in the midst of all these, I am reminded to give thanks to the Lord, because He is good. And his love endures forever. Tho, I am really really sad right now, and I have no mood what-so-ever, to celebrate the chinese new year, I want to practise my obedience to the Lord. I want to worship Him in the midst of disappointments and rejection.

Oh Lord, How can I say thanks...for all the things you have done for me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6DFuBAnlXA

How can I say thanks
For the things You have done for me,
Things so undeserved,
Yet You gave to prove Your love for me.
The voices of a million angels
Could not express my gratitude.
All that I am and ever hope to be,
I owe it all to Thee.

To God be the glory,
To God be the glory,
To God be the glory,
For the things He has done.
With His blood He has saved me,
With His power He has raised me,
To God be the glory,
For the things He has done.

Just let me live my life,
Let it be pleasing, Lord, to Thee,
And if I gain any praise,
Let it go to Calvary.
With His blood He has saved me,
With His power He has raised me,
To God be the glory,
For the things He has done.

Salvation Belongs To Our God

2009-01-13T15:50:00.000+08:00

Salvation belongs to our God

Who sits upon the throne

And unto the lamb

Be praise and glory

Wisdom and thanks

Honor and power and strength

Be to our God

Forever and ever

Be to our God

Forever and ever

Be to our God

Forever and ever, amen

And we the redeemed shall be strong

In purpose, and unity

Declaring aloud

Praise and glory

Wisdom and thanks

Honor and power and strength

Pre-Chinese New Year

2009-01-13T09:20:00.002+08:00

It's good to have mom back. When I was driving home on Sunday evening, in anticipation that she's waiting at home, I just wanted to jump at her and give her a big hug and kiss...Heeheehee. I wondered to myself, how did I survived 4 yrs in UK without mom.

This the season of Chinese New Year. Last night, we went to Hua Ho and there were lots of CNY decorations and food. I also noticed the exceptionally larger numbers of white-haired aunties, together with their adult children, going through the food section, I guessed toppin up their food stock for CNY. I also saw this quite elderly man, going through CNY clothes, and his daughter giving him suggesions about how he look in different colours, and which shirt to wear on CNY eve dinner and also CNY day. So nice to see children bringing their parents out. My mom was no exception. She also joined the throng of people and bought herself a really nice new CNY blouse. Seeing mom's excitement, makes me feel very dull. I really have not much of a mood to buy any new clothes, probably coz I've been through a lot of shopping while I travelled last month. I DO have new clothes, but they're all probably out in the sea somewhere, as I sent them back my shipment. Ahhh....

It's been raining quite a lot lately. The days seemed gloomy, and really just PERFECT for sleep. Aside from work, today, I'm going to make some CNY cards and hopefully, post it to you guys. So, it would be GREAT if you can email me your addresses or just post them here on the blog if you don't mind. Heehee...

A few prayer items I would appreciate you all to pray for me about. These few days, my eyes have been hurting and I constantly need to put some eye drops to soothe it. Nope, I've not seen a doctor yet as I was hoping that it would go away, but last night, it was still hurthing. Please also pray for my medical check up results (a formality that has to be done when I work for the government) and that there will be a kind and understanding doctor who will be willing to back date the medical report for me.

Lastly, a blessing and reminder for all the readers...

Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look FULL in His wonderful face and the things of this world will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.

Morning thoughts

2009-01-10T08:33:00.003+08:00

Confusion:

I never quite know what to do with the car when I drive down that long hill along SupaSave Mabohai. I'm at Gear 3, and the car is going downhill quite fast, should I continue to step on the accelerator or just let it run, or put my gear to neutral and let it stall. I remember when I was young, and in the car, my eldest bro had an argument with dad about it. Bro said that we should put it to neutral and let the car run, so that we can save fuel. Ha! Talk about energy saving! However, later on in my life, when I was taking my driving lessons in UK, I realised that letting your car stall at a neutral gear is dangerous! Because you do not have control of the car in case something happens! So, up to today, whenever I drive down that hill (a good 30 seconds wheeee! down), I usually have Gear 2 or 3 in place, sometimes pressing on the accelerator if I want to go faster (but it never seem to go faster! which is annoying) or sometimes, just let it Rock-and-Roll. Hehe...

Also, another thought about my UK driving licence. It really have come to no use! Well, for the next 5 years at least if I'm going to be working in Brunei. I initially didn't want to get a UK driving licence, but at that time, my brothers ENCOURAGED me to get it if I can, and they said that it may come to good use one day. So I prayed about it, and decided that, perhaps it may come to good use, if God sends me to do mission work somewhere in Africa or somthing since I can practically drive anywhere in the world with my British driving licence. Amazingly, I passed during my first driving test!! But now, come to think of it, I think my next dream (in terms of missions) is to go on Logos Hope (yes, the ship!), so what am I gonna use my driving licence for?! Drive a boat?!!! So, sometimes, regretting why I went through all that to get a UK driving licence. Or another way to think of it is, to wait upon the Lord. His plans will unfold in my life and one day, I'll KNOW why I went through all that for a UK driving licence.

Annoying bits:

I've been finding it quite annoying because I'm always late for work. Always 5 or 10 mins late. I didn't like that, I like to be on time. But I also don't like to be too early. Nowadays, I'm always 5 or 10 mins late coz of traffic. It's really bad.

Talking about working, and I'm working with the government, I just learnt that employees of the Brunei government does not get sacked unless, unless their work performance is really bad for a consequetive 3 years. Ha! So that's why, so many people can be lazy and come to work late once in a while, and escape any form of punishment! Like me!!! :P

Yup, just some thoughts I had this morning while driving to work. Ta~

Happy New Year 2009

2009-01-09T10:59:00.003+08:00

Dear All,

Wishing every1 a Happy New Year 2009. Sorry, it's been a while since I last update. Mainly coz I was busy and also procrastinating.

So for new year, my care group people decided to meet up for the countdown, so we were playing scrabbles, monopoly, play station and karaoke while waiting for 12am! Heeeheee...And at 12, there were lots of fireworks going on around the neighbourhood. I drove back around 1am and I encountered 2 police road blocks, which were mainly to check if people were drink driving.

The next day, mom and I went down to Miri coz my grandma just underwent a leg surgery where her leg was amputated. Actually, some amazing things did happen while I was there. Firstly, grandma was actually quite alert and she knows us all. So I reckon I could talk to her about Jesus. So, while she was lying in bed one day, with her eyes open, I asked her "Popo, do you know who Jesus is?" and she said "No". Then I told her that Jesus is God, Jesus loves her and protects her. She looked at me and was confused. I told my mom to daily repeat these words to her while she stayed in Miri.

Another amazing thing happened as well with regards to money. My mom asked me to deposit some money into the bank, so I used the ATM machine. Somehow, the machine didn't accept one of her RM50 so I decided to just take it back as I was lazy to redo the whole process again. I gave mom her RM50 back, and she told me I could have it. So I put it into my purse which already contained about RM50++ inside. So in total, I had about RM100++. Later that day, I decided to go to a local christian bookshop. There I saw a book that I like which was bot RM50. I didn't get the book straight away. Then I continued browsing, and I saw a Chinese bible. The kind which mom always wanted...Large Print and the chinese characters read from left to right, instead of her current bible where it reads top to bottom. Ah...and when I looked at the price, it was bout RM50 also! Wow, so cheap!...I bought both books straight away! It's really amazing, some people may think that it's a coincidence, but all things happen under God's control anyway. I showed mom the new bible I got her and she really liked it.

I drove back to Brunei alone that day, mom decided to stay in Miri to help aunt look after grandma. The next day, I got sick and only went to work for half a day. Heehee...it was a good day to rest!

On Sunday, went to church and then dinner and then hang out at Geri's place. KY decided that I should cook them a meal on Tuesday because I can now that I have the whole house to myself, we can now PARTY!! LOOL

So ya, on Tuesday, instead of playing squash, I stayed at home to cook for my dear friends. The menu for dinner that day was, sweet and sour pork, lamb curry, tofu and mixed vegies. After dinner, we watched a DVD.

So ya, so far that's what's been happening. Other than that, living alone can be fun and boring at times. Heehee....spent 2 hours doing housework this morning! Blehhh...

Have a fun filled weekend ahead! Godbless you all!

Reflections of 2008

2008-12-31T15:03:00.003+08:00

It's funny, when something is nearly gone, you want to hold on it so tight. You just want to enjoy every moment and hope that it'll last long. Nope, I'm not referring to anyone. I'm referring to the year 2008. I find it quite a special moment to spend at peace for my last 9 hours of 2008, it's so precious. Once gone, it'll never come back again.

This year has been a TREMENDOUS year. Most of the chapters of my life this year has been in a ROLLER-COASTER, but it was an EXCITING one. Really exciting because God was greatly working in my life. I remember a lot of what has happened this year because in every circumstances, I asked God what He is teaching me, and after a lesson learnt, it just sticks to my memory.

Around Jan/Feb, God helped me through difficut time when I had to take a break from my relationship with sum1. Tho it was difficult, God helped me to even stand up in front of the class to do my presentation in Medical Diagnostics. I remembered, I was crying before I went for the presentation but amazingly, I did not cry during presentation. God gave me an excellent mark for that module.

Throughout those months, I prayed everyday for him and myself. Around 2 months later, I received an email from WL and he was ready to regain the relationship. I was in awe and really thankful for answered prayers.

At the same time, my mother was really cross with me because of this relationship and she hanged up on me everytime I call her on the phone. I was hurt, but I prayed and asked the Lord for help. One day, I received a phone call from mom and she was ready to talk. I could not believe it.

Around April, I was rushing to finish my project dissertation. My housemates were away for electives, so I was left home alone at City Road. But God sent people to stay with me. Mark was away so HF had to stay with me for 1 week and Lamia stayed with me for conveience to go to Uni, so I had company. For my project write up, many early mornings and late night, God gave me strength. He gave me ideas and confidence to write and I scored very well for that module.

I was missing home a lot and wanted to go home ASAP after my exams. But I also knew I had to sit for 1 exam in KL because I failed for one module duing my First Sem. God's grace, I had the strength to go there and sit for it. Results came out in July, I failed again!

Though I was really upset, God opened up opportunity for me in August to work for the Brunei government in Drug Quality Control Section (where I am right now) and I learnt that my bond would be 5 years instead of 10 if I did do my pre-registration in Pharmacy. I took a deep breath, God must have some plans for me, so instead of fighting it, I accepted His will in my life.

I later found out that I was not being paid, because there wasn't a proper post opening for me until a lady in my section gets promoted, which they said will be in October. So I waited and it wasn't until November that she was promoted. I prayed about my situation and left it in the hands of God.

God's grace, He also opened doors for me to attend a care group and settle well into Church fellowship. I wasn't intending to join the English section because all these while, I grew up in Chinese section and wasn't too keen on getting to know the new pople in English Section. But on the day that I thought it was suppose to be Chinese Youth Fellowship, it turned out to be English Youth Fellowship (they're actually quite young), so there I met David who invited me to join his care group and from there, I made friends.

By God's grace, I returned earlier this month to attend my graduation ceremony in Nottingham. Many people thinks that graduation is just geting a piece of cardboard paper, but for me, it wasn't just that because being able to graduate was a BIG thing for me. If God wasn't there to pull me through, I wouldn't be able to walk up the stage or wear my graduation gown.

Then, Praise the Lord indeed, I was able to meet up with some of my friends from Nottingham again and catch up with them. It was indeed a blessing to know how God has been working so tremendously in different people's lives and He is indeeed a true and living God.

So this year has been a fruitful one. My faith has increased, and my relationship with God has been brought up to a new dimension and new level. I guessed my new year's resolution for 2008 has been achieved! I learnt all the difficult way. Amen.

I am looking forward to the new year 2009 and really, just waiting in expectation for what the Lord has instore for me. I always say and I always pray that to be living in God's will is the best thing in life.

Anway, that's all for updates. Have a God Enriched New Year 2009!

Adios!

My Graduation on the 11th Dec 2008

2008-12-19T01:27:00.004+08:00

So, this is how it feels to be able to graduate. A little anxious and excited before the ceremony, nervous during the ceremony, inspired, motivated and overjoyed after the ceremony. I give thanks to the Lord for this great opportunity and He's definitely been with me throught thick and thin.

I remembered the first time I came to Nottingham, I didn't really like it and thought that I could not survive there for long. I cried to my flatmate and told her I wanted to buy a ticket to go back home the next day (this was during my first December holidays in UK). Then I slowly got involved with societies and fellowships, getting to know more people and life was more fun.

Then, there was Dubai which we stopped over. My highlight was going on a 4 WD throught the sand dunes and also the ride on the camel.

Other photos can be found at my facebook.

Currently at work...

2008-11-26T11:39:00.003+08:00

So currently at work, I'm trying to finish the physical inspection list...and I know, there's an ISO project of some kind which my boss is hinting me on next. But next week, monday to saturday, I'm attending a pharmacoeconomic training course...hmm..and I'm flying off next week! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee to Dubai first for a short holiday and sit on the camels, then to UK for graduation, see HF and other Nottingham'ers (too bad I'll miss RFTS), then to Coventry to see my bro and my niece Olivia, then to Ireland to see my 2nd bro and his cat :P, and finally, to Hong Kong with mom for christmas!

I had a horrible dream last night. I was really late to go to the airport to catch my flight to Hong Kong from Brunei. In the end, I missed the flight and had to catch the next flight. I almost missed the transit fight from Hong Kong to Dubai, causing me much anxiety in my dream! Hehe...but it's just a dream....

So now, at least one part of my life I can have a breather...another part (work side) is catching up on me.

Spiritual life - At a maintained level.
Movie that I want to watch - Joseph The King of Dreams
Favourite song now - You Know Better than I
Looking forward to - Join early christmas celebration with CG and gift exchange
- Eating HF's cooked / baked foooody
Mood - Good

So Close to the Sky

2008-11-24T14:57:00.004+08:00

You know what guys, I work so close to the sky! Actually, there are not a lot of tall buildings in Brunei. The tallest building has to be the mosque! Unbelievable rule but it's true and it's a rule. So, I'm working at the 7th floor of a 8th floors building, and I really do feel I work so close to the sky. Whenever I look out the big windows, I see the sky so close to me. All my life, I've lived quite low down, but having such a good view from the office, I can't help but always give thanks to the Lord for his goodness in my life, though sometimes, I am also left utterly confused and with a lot of questions. But deep in my heart, I know the Lord never left me and is always there for me, watching over me and guiding me all along in the midst of any circumstances that life comes along my way.

I was just reading about the story of Joseph. From the time he was sold to Egypt to when he finally became a governor of the food supplies, it was at least 1 yr working for the king, 2 yrs in jail, 7 yrs with plenty of food supply + 7 yrs of no food supply. So in total, at least 17 yrs or more...I wonder if i was like Joseph, I would have asked God a lot of questions...heh. I may not get paid for these 4 months that I'm working until I get an offer letter, which hopefully they will get it done by the end of this month (i dont know) but I was feeling quite bitter towards God. Iasked myself, if I were to trust God, am I only to trust the GOODNESS that he provides me with and NOT the "Seem-like-BADNESS"? Hoever, the story of Joseph DID really reminded me of some important things about TRUELY trusting God and in is case, for at least SEVENTEEN years! So there is a race for me to run! If things were easy, we'll not learn properly and our faith can't be proven...

So, things may be hard, just take one thing at a time. It's like, if today God teach me this...ok, I'll learn. Tomorrow God teaches another thing...learn. Don't fight it. And not think so much ahead. No matter what, whatever it takes, trusting in God is the ONLY way. He is THE Way, THE Truth and THE Life.

Ask God for HIS discernment and ask Him to help you give up your own human reasoning. Entrust youself totally to the Lord, leaving your situation entirely in His hands. Amen!

Better Than I by David Campbell

2008-11-13T12:00:00.023+08:00

Watch and Listen: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8oL6HlzQZLo

I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don't know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what's best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in you

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was you who taught that bird to fly
If I let you reach me will you teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
I'll take what answers you supply

You know better than I

Japan

2008-11-13T12:00:00.022+08:00

A tear dropped and my heart broke as I read in Kenny's page (http://www.kennygan.blogspot.com/) about the situation in Japan. They seem to be spiritually bankrupt and as reported, going deeper and deeper into darkness. To many, life has seem to become meaningless and hopeless. As Kenny cries out that Japan seriously needs prayer and A renewal of their churches, I join him in his desperation for prayer. I wonder how many other churches out there or how many individuals out there, although known as 'believers', unknowingly continue to live a worldly life. Not dying to the desire of the flesh and not yielding to the desire of the Spirit.

Matthew 6:24"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.

Being a true believer we cannot continue in this sin in serving two masters in our lives. We cannot still triumph in buying 4-D or even if we don't buy, but triumph WITH our friends or family members who buys it when they win. We cannot, being a christian, still believe in feng-sui, palm reading, superstitons, fate or what the chinese calendar says about a particular day being lucky or not. We cannot even comprimise our faith for one millimetre!

"Send me Lord" in Japanese
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9TxvMhG686A
"Carn Mei Tze Cuen" in Mandarin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIt9n2Wjlf8.
How farmiliar am I with this song. A popular Top 10 song in our church since it was released. Tho I cannot fully understand the WHOLE lyrics of this song, God has never stopped using it to minister it to my heart, even if it's just through the music.

Blessed Day!

From the Inside Out

2008-11-13T12:00:00.016+08:00

Listen and Watch here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwJEdo1FlMo. Blessed day!

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

HIllsong United: From the Inside Out

Run The Race

2008-11-13T12:00:00.015+08:00

Let us strip off and throw aside every encumbrance (unnecessary weight)...and let us run with patient endurance and steady and active persistence the appointed course of the race that is set before us. -HEBREWS 12:1

Do you guys really know what it means to persevere on, to continue to have patience and persistence? When you're tempted by the devil at all sides to leave the word of God and to be disobedient? When you're just so tempted to be selfish and think about yourself only and don't care about what other people feel? When you've been hurt, mistreated, being treated unfairly, unjust or treated unkindly to, and by the grace and mercy of God, shake off those things in life and continueto persevere on like a donkey!?

Sometimes, things can go really crazy. Probably the devil is trying to stir things up in your life right now because he knows he's going to lose! Remember, if the devil doesn't see you as a threat, he wouldn't do anything to stir things up in your life. So, as a reminder to myself and maybe to you, Keep Hanging On!

"the devil is like a prowling tiger,

waiting to pounce on us"

So guys, if you're going through a tough time in your life right now,

RUN THE RACE. Keep pressing on and have victory in your life. Finish the 'RACE' well and He will call you good and faithful servant. Amen!

Be Still

2008-11-13T12:00:00.007+08:00

Listen and watch. May God speak to your heart as He did to mine!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDOjXp255LI&feature=related

Be still for the presence of the Lord
The Holy One is here
Come bow before Him now
With reverence and fear

In Him no sin is found
We stand on holy ground
Be still for the presence of the Lord
The Holy One is here

Be still for the glory of the Lord
Is shining all around
He burns with holy fire
With splendor He is crowned

How awesome is the sight
Our radiant King of Light
Be still for the glory of the Lord
Is shining all around

Be still for the power of the Lord
Is moving in this place
He comes to cleanse and heal
To minister His grace
No work too hard for Him
In faith receive from Him
Be still for the power of the Lord
Be still
Is moving in this place

Be still

Be still

Complete - Parachute Band

2008-11-13T12:00:00.004+08:00

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice–my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to You, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I’ll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in You

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice–my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord.
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I’ll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in You

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I’ll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

Amen to Jesus!

2008-11-13T12:00:00.003+08:00

I realised, when you shut-up, it is acutally a good thing as you allow God to speak to you more. When, you go out of your mind to force yourself to shut-up and just trust God solely in ALL and EVERYTHING, in the midst of any circumstance you're in, GOD SPEAKS!

Indeed, the word of the Lord is Hebrews 4:12 LIVING and ACTIVE. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. This indeed has been applicable to my life lately.

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. Romans 8:26.
Amazingly, out of my distress and helplessness, I did experience the above promise personally on Wednesday night, throughout the night while in bed. It was beyond my imagination and expectation, how this could happen.

When I am going through a period of feeling like thousands of fiery arrows coming after me at all directions, I imagine a God as my shield. As Ephesians 6: 13-15 says to put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, I may be able to STAND MY ground, and after I have done everything, to stand. To STAND FIRM at this time, with the BELT OF TRUTH buckled around MY waist, with the BREASTPLATE of RIGHTEOUSNESS in place, and with MY feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. I can still STAND FIRM. Amen!

Malachi 3:3

2008-11-13T12:00:00.002+08:00

Malachi 3:3 says: 'He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.'

This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible Study.

That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining Silver.

As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.

The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot; then she thought again about the verse that says: 'He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver.' She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined.

The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.

The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, 'How do you know when the silver is fully refined?'

He smiled at her and answered, 'Oh, that's easy -- when I see my image in it.' If today you are feeling the heat of the fire , remember that God has his eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.

'Life is a coin. You can spend it anyway you wish, but you can only spend it once.

Fear Not

2008-11-13T12:00:00.001+08:00

No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will not fail you or forsake you. -JOSHUA 1:5

I have heard it said there are 365 references to "fear not" in the Bible. I know there are at least 355, according to Dake's Annotated Reference Bible, one "fear not" for almost everyday of the year. Do you really want to obey the Scriptures and "fear not?" If so, you will be in good company because every person in the Bible who was ever USED by God to any degree was told over and over by Him, "Fear not." One of those people was Joshua. Joshua, the man God chose to follow Moses, had a big job ahead of him: to lead the children of Israel into the Promised Land.

God wasn't telling Joshua to be like Moses; but that He would be to Joshua what He had been to Moses. God would not fail or forsake Joshua. He was saying, "Fear not, Joshua, I will be with you!" When God tells you He will be with you, that means no matter what the circumstances are like, everything will work out all right because God will never fail you or forsake you.

Joyce Meyer

Badminton Tournament Results

2008-11-13T09:48:00.003+08:00

I WON! I WON! I won in all my matches!! Yipppie!!!! Yay! Yay! Praise the Lord!

My colleagues, knowing that last night, that they were going to be my opponent, wanted to bribe me with KFC! Heeheeeheeeee....But, I tried my best to lose! :P But I still won! Sorrrieeee...I can get KFC myself! Lol

Ahhh...I look forward to eating HF's baked carrot cake! Make sure it's nice!

Tomorrow, I got to go help my godpa translate his post-recorded malay lecture into writing. He's going to be sitting for an exam for Brunei citizenship. Ahhhhh.......more work to do. Can't rest on friday. Booohooohoooo.........

Recently, I'm hanging on, and greatly encouraged by many people. Continue to persevere Yan Shiang! Add Oil!

Bye now people! Have a TREMENDOUS weekend ahead! Ta!

Spiritual Nourishment

2008-11-12T09:31:00.004+08:00

I tell you, do not be anxious and troubled [with cares] about your life, as to what you will [have to] eat; or about your body, as to what you will [have to] wear. For life is more than food, and the body [more] than clothes. -LUKE 12:22-23

Accompanyng song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JEswcXc-CCU&feature=related

If you have a rich spiritual life, you'll already be satisfied with the moment, the day, the year We all have these moments at times. You wander through a summer field of fireflies and suddenly feel still and awed at the beauty of it all. You hold your new son or grandson on your lap and feel a great spiritual bond of love all around you. You're still in a pew Sunday morning and the light comes through the stained glass and fills your heart with joy. The moment is complete in itself. You don't think, My heart is full of joy, and boy, do I wish I had a slice of chocolte cake in my hand!

You can know the complete fulfillment of spiritual nourishment and know that if you can experience it regularly, you'll have no problem eating and drinking only what you need. In fact, we should all feel those transcendent moments more often than we do. I believe they are essential to physical, emotional, and spiritual health. And I think we spend too little time trying to achieve them and too much time meditation on our problems. Whether it' in therapy, at home, or with friends over coffe, if we stew i our own problems all the time, they are only going to be with us that much more.

Get your mind off the problems, and spend more time meditating on the ONE, TRUE solution - God's love. Our problems in life - and therfe will be problems - should DRIVE us TO God, not away from Him. Jonah tried running from his duty to the Lord by sailing to a remote destination, and look what happened to him! Don't follow Jonah's path. Run to God! He won't just help you find the solutions to your spiritual hunger; He's the solution!

Joyce Meyer

Pain

2008-11-11T16:15:00.004+08:00

Somethings must be done, a decision must be for a change, it is worth giving a try. A change for the better.

Pain. When someone sacrifice something so as to decrease/lighten/release pain from one person, further pain is inflicted on another person or more. Perhaps it's just like what Jesus did. We no longer suffer the wrath of sin, which is eternal death because Jesus took it away. The suffering and pain was cast on Him, and we are redeemed forever.

Salvation Belongs to Our God

2008-11-11T09:40:00.008+08:00

I forsee going through a chapter of my life which is going to be one of the toughest and most challenging journey and I forsee a lot of trials, temptations to give up, and to lose hope. Although there may be stumbling blocks along the day, circumstances may change, my mood may change, but I am confident in the Lord who is ever so faithful, never changing, in control, who is the creator of Heavens and Earth, who loves all HIS children and will work all things out for the GOOD of those who love Him and are called according to His purposes.

I look forward to the day I can walk out from all this and give thanks and Glory to Him. The Lord is the sustainer of all things, He is our cornerstone, or Solid Rock, Our Redeemer, Our Saviour, He is the Mesaiah, He is the King of kings and Lords of Lords, He is the Alpha and Omega. He is my protector, my comforter, my everlasting Father. He will not let the righteous fall. Amen.

Isaiah 41:10

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall. But those who HOPE IN THE LORD, shall RENEW their STRENGTH. They will SOAR on wings like EAGLES. They will run but not grow weary, they will walk NOT be faint.

Salvation belongs to our God

Who sits upon the throne

And unto the lamb

Be praise and glory

Wisdom and thanks

Honor and power and strength

Be to our God

Forever and ever

Be to our God

Forever and ever

Be to our God

Forever and ever, amen

And we the redeemed shall be strong

In purpose, and unity

Declaring aloud

Praise and glory

Wisdom and thanks

Honor and power and strength

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aec8GhTcbYg

Currently

2008-11-07T20:07:00.002+08:00

Currently, at work, my colleague (Siti) and I are involved in re-designing and creating new forms and work procedure flow chart for handling product complains and cold chain breaks. We are also going to propose a few new work procedures such as notification of product brand name change, product recalls, keeping up with a data base of exchangeable items from suppliers and keeping up with items expiring. The drug products we are handling are for the whole country, involving the 4 districts in Brunei. I am enjoying what I am doing so far and I praise God for that.

My graduation ceremony will be on the 11th December 2008, 3pm at The University of Nottingham. Unfortunately, I have received news from the university that they have not received my graduation form and guest tickets application yet. Although the University did say that there will be a hotline opened mid November for any guest tickets left, and I am hoping that they will receive my form soon and also hoping to get at least 1 guest ticket, I fear there may be a possibility that my mom and my brother may not be able to enter into the ceremony. I would really appreciate prayers that the University will receive my forms soon and that I can get guest tickets.

Badminton tournament starts next week Monday to Wednesday. The Pharmacy department has finalised yesterday in our meeting regarding the different categories and distributed task. It's going to be a fun time playing with my colleagues in a competition.

Choir, we're practicing 1 song currently - This is the day / From the Rising of the Sun. This song will be sung 23rd Nov for church anniversary, and we're also learning another song - O Holy Night for our Christmas celebration on the 30 Nov. It's great fun learning those songs with the people of God.

I have been keeping up with people and yes, I do realise that every1 is at different areas and walks of life, and people need a lot of prayers.

Currently, people on my prayer list are Debbie, Boon, HF, Hong, Geri, David, Jason, Sin Li and my mum.
Current Korean series I'm watching is - Only You
Current book in the Bible I'm reading is - Jeremiah, Romans and Psalm
Current sport I'm doing - squash Tuesdays, badminton Mondays
Current person who is teasing me most - Wei Leong
Current most favorite christian song - Complete by Parachute Band
Current hairstyle - Short, slanted fringe and straightened, shoulder length hair
Current most favourite food - Martabak from CA Mohammad
Current mood - Very good
Currently, things I need to do....A Lot! Heehee

Have a great day ahead my friends!

Never Go to Bed Angry

2008-11-05T14:46:00.002+08:00

When angry, do not sin; do not ever let your wrath (your

exasperation, your fury and indignation) last until the sun goes down. -EPHESIANS 4:26

Now, I don't know about you, but I'm glad this verse is in the Bible, because it helps us to build character by giving us a guideline to follow in hndling our anger: let go of anger before bedtime. There is only one problem. What happens when we become good and mad just before bed-time? If we become mad in the morning, at least we have all day to get over it. But when we become mad close to bedtime, we have to make a quick decision.

Why is it so bad for us to go to bed angry? I think it is because while we sleep, what we are angry about has time to get a hold on us and take root in us. But the Word says, "Leave no [such] room or foothold for the devil [give no opportunity to him]." (EPHESIANS 4:27) This verse tells us what happens if we refuse to get over our anger by bedtime: It opens a door for the devil and gives Satan a foothold. Once Satan gets a foothold in our lives, then he can move on to a stronghold. You may wonder, Well, if I am mad, what should I do about it? Get over it! You may think, That's easy for you to say, but you're not in my situation. I may not be in your situation, but you are not in my situation either. We all have different situations. If you are going to live a joyful, victorious life, you have to do so by choice and not by feeling.

In Deuteronomy 30:19 the Lord tells us, "I have set before you life and death, the blessings and th curses; therefore choose life." Choose life by refusing to give in to anger. Take responsibility for your anger and learn to deal with it -process it and bring closure to it, and that will relieve the pressure.

Joyce Meyer - New Day New You Daily Devotional material